Contradicting thoughts

Sometimes
No, many times
I face a dilemma
That how can
I sway sides
And still not
Curse myself
For the instability
There are days
When I consider
Myself good
And a sane guy
And then the switch
Is pressed
The tables are turned
The tides rise high above
The horizon seems to move more farther
Stability just becomes a hollow word
Hell lose free
I become a devil
Devil for me
Devil for most
And I start thinking all bad
And somehow I get through it too
Just like everything else
And then the contradiction phase
Starts and I think
Why this happens?
Is it just me?
It sure isn’t just me
But it can be only me too
If it’s only me
Then I gotta find a solution to this
Or give up
But if it’s with others too
Then I gotta make sure
That I let everybody know this
And in return
Get some inputs
But most don’t care
About what’s happening with me
Because of the same reason
That I don’t care
What’s happening with them
So the no.of inputs decrease
But no matter the inputs
Come or not
Deep within I know
The present is perfect
Good or bad is an illusion
And living the present
In the best possible way
Is the best possible thing
I can do to keep
These contradicting nature at bay

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P.S.: Weekend is here but it’s 3:30 am here & no particular song is coming to me. Feel free to share any of your present favorites here 😉 Goodnight!

23 thoughts on “Contradicting thoughts

  1. We’ve all felt contradicting thoughts before, you are definitely not the only one 😉 The mind is a powerful tool that loves to play tricks on us. The past can make people feel sad and the future makes them feel anxious so you’re right to live in the present moment as much as humanly possible. 🙂 Don’t be so hard on yourself ok 😉 I am requesting the song “Disturbia” ~by Rihanna and when you listen to it you have to get up and dance and shake off those contradicting thoughts! 😛 😀

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