That is impossible. I don’t accept it. It is illogical.
How can I grow when time has stopped? I mean think, all the clocks in this world have stopped ticking & it is the same since I DON’T KNOW because time has stopped. Stopped DEAD! I am thinking and it implies that the second hand should do “its thing” of ticking faster than the other two hands. But it ain’t. And as it isn’t ticking, the other two are stagnant.
This is causing a fucking headache. Why is it happening? Is it just in my head? I am feeling dizzy. Short of breath. Oh! I think, I know the reason for all these things. I am dying and that’s why everything has stopped. Oh now I know, this is the time when I have to reminisce all of the good, the bad & the ugly moments of my life. No! Only the good. Who cares about the bad & the ugly?
This is just a moment but it feels like it is made of years and decades & centuries from within. I am dying but with the good memories running as a slideshow in my head, I want to live. I have never wanted to stay more alive. Something’s kicking from inside asking me to stop all this & get out of this thing. I hate this feeling of being dead. Time being dead. When time stops dead, I am dead. We are all dead.
I have never experienced real death like this before but I have come very close to this feeling. You ask when?
It was when I failed in my Graduation final year. I realized that I have to study one more year and I was no way more knowledgeable than I was the year before. I wasted my whole year. From that day, I made a promise to myself that I won’t waste even a single day. There is so much to learn out there, only if we are open to see it and learn from it. And irrespective of whether we are alive or dead or forgotten, things will be moving because we will be wanting to learn. The day we stop to learn is the DOOMSDAY for us. We may take some time to realize it but let’s just hope that we realize it before it’s too late.
I woke up at the rising tone of my phone’s alarm and all sweaty. I was panting as if I just had been racing against Usain Bolt. Reality struck me, I was late for my final year exam of Graduation and was hoping against hope while traveling to college that WAS MY REALIZATION A BIT LATE?
P.S.: Don’t just sit back and relax. Go, learn but remember to visit again 😀 Happy weekend and today’s pick is Hotel california of Eagles 🙂