Darkest hour cometh

He was confused

Lost his sanity

Lost his judgement

Lost his senses

Lost his happiness

Left his home

Left his family

Left his life behind

And he drove all night

To uncertainty

To sanity

To mental stability

The destination of the drive

Could not be found on any maps

Because it was within him

Somewhere hidden

And in hibernation

It was on him to search

It’s hiding habitat

And discover it

He was alone

With his grief

And his demons

And it was him who could

Find a way to shut them

All down and bid them goodbye

He knew they were toxic

And then the midnight

Became pitch dark darkness

Just before the dawn

The darkest hour cometh

He was not at all drowsy

Because the fear and sadness

Had shaken his world upside down

He knew he can tackle them

When he started the car engine

Now When the dawn was just some

Minutes away

He decided it’s time to

Go back

To the same fucking life

Of insecurities and chaos

And just when he was about to

Reach his home and

Go into the arms of

The source of all his problems

He chose the most

Easy and difficult way out

He drove his car

Into the trunk of the banyan tree

And before bidding goodbye

To his demons

He had to bid goodbye to

The unsatisfying, unhappy

Bitchy world

He was a part of..

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This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

P.S. : Today’s choice is Your decision by Alice in Chains ❤ Hope your weekend is going strong and awesome 🙂

Lack of morality

Morality

Just a mere word

But life to many

Going against it

Needs sincere will power

And many can’t do it

May be I can’t also

Keeping others in darkness

Is against morality

Or conscience

Showing lack of morals

Or having a dirty or confused conscience is easy

But that ain’t me

Easy things are not for me

I like to struggle

Talk myself out of situations

Take risks

But also make sure

I don’t take a step

I would regret

Because regrets come

When we take a step without

The green signal from our heart

And not considering

The present situations at hand

Keeping the regrets to minimum

Is the best

And it can be done with

Clear conscience

And no lack of morality

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P.S.: Weekend is almost here and today’s choice is If you come back of Blue 🙂 Taking decisions is a big thing and hence we gotta know what’s best or not 😉 With passage of time we learn from bad decisions and experiences and this leads to a satisfied heart 😉 Hope you get it all working the best for you ❤

For how long?

how_long

I am happy now

But for how long?

I am so sad

But for how long?

I have a feeling to end it all

But for how long?

I want to stay aloof

But for how long?

I don’t understand what is next

But for how long?

Will you be my partner?

But for how long?

Let us be together forever

But for how long?

Let there be peace in our lives

But for how long?

I want to keep kissing you

But for how long?

For how long

Do I need all these things

Till they will last

This period of how long

Is not something pre-defined

Or something static

It varies in various situations

And also on the people

Present in that situation

But for how long

Will my life depend on it?

For how long

Will I feel this pain?

For how long

Can I keep you happy?

For how long

Things will stay good?

For how long

Things will be worst?

Forget all this shit

The main thing is

For how long

Can I keep myself in control

From all these mere things

And keep accepting

And tackling the situations

And this power within

Will define all the time constraints..

Crystallized

I was I

You were you

And things were okay


I met you

You met me

Things were lil different


I came to know you

You came to know me

Things started rolling


I liked you

You were confused

Things got stuck for a while


I hoped that

Things will be fine

You were mute from your side

I kept my fingers crossed

For your reply

And it came

But it was

Not what I expected

Things were all gone

Things were shattered

We could had become

The most precious diamond

Could have crystallized

Into a gem

But these doubts and confusion

And not talking

And being silent

Instead made us coal

Unwanted

Better to forget

And burn away

A lil effort

And we would had been the best gem ever..

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The fall and the grief..

I haven’t said

That I love you

And there’s no need also

I know I love you

You know I love you

And when you avoid me

Because you are confused

About your thing for me

I become a bit depressed

And confuse myself

And all I have to do is

Look at your pictures

Your smiles

Your eyes

Your nature

It makes me fall in love

With you

Over and over again

And falling is not bad

Falling is heaven

Falling is calm

Falling is serene

I feel alive

Its when I hit the ground

Grief shows up

So if I keep on falling

I am always in heaven

Being worried about the grief

Means I am not living my life

So when the grief time nears

I make sure I find

Another reason

Excluding the previous

Million reasons

To fall for you again

By enjoying the fall

And feeling the heaven

raining

Decision making..

decision-making

It’s not about long days

And long weeks

It’s about big decisions

Life changing decisions

Decisions affecting you

Decisions affecting people

Related to you

The drainage of energy

Used by the mind

To process and make a decision

The sweat on your brow

Thinking about the consequences

After making the decision

The looks and taunts

You will receive in ample

After making the decision

The avoidance and ignorance

Of dear people

Who mean to you

But whose expectations

You didn’t match

After making the decision

These are the causes for the longevity of time

But you should be happy

As YOU MADE YOUR OWN DECISION

No one else forced their

Decision on you

You knew what you wanted

And you got that

By speaking your heart

By standing alone

By going through the phase

Of decision making

And you shouldn’t

Care much about the people

Who are disappointed

Because they don’t care

About your decisions

Before and after decision making

But their own

And you should

Leave them behind for good

You should know deep

In your heart

And bank your trust on those

For whom you matter

Your happiness, after

The strainful decision matters

And no matter the decision

They will be right there

Beside you

So you go ahead

And make the decision

And be assured

I am here waiting for you

With smiling lips

And spread arms

To welcome the happy you..

Gradually less confused..

Shall I go watch a movie?

Or shall I go to a park?

Or better some friend’s place

Or spend time in solitude

Or… forget it

Who cares?

I am all confused

I am always confused

Why is it so??

If I am confused

What to do with one extra

Free hour I got today

How can I make such big decisions like

Whom to marry?

What to do next?

What I want to become after 10 years?

Or say 30 years?

Wow, how will I decide all this?

But I know

All those will happen

In some miraculous way

If I invest these little amount

Of extra time in a productive way

I will be something

Definitely less confused

Than I am today

Which is my most priority aim

To become less confused

With each passing day

Try to make sense of things happening

Try to understand the things happening

Try.. Just try

Failure or success is important

But not compulsory

But trying is compulsory

Trying to know myself better

By knowing myself

I will know you better

Knowing you better

I will know myself better

And by that I will be less confused

Helping each other

Helping one another

Become less confused

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