Sober or Submission..

I am sober
You ask how long?
Almost 2 years
But..
Let me first define
Which Sober I am referring to
I am talking about
Being with a girl
Liked & loved by her
Like & love her back
I had someone in my life
Someone special
Things were all good
But unavoidable circumstances
Blessed us with parting ways
And it took some time to get over
And I hope it is all good now
But at some point
I will have to submit myself
To someone else
And I am also sure
It will be a mutual feeling
The feeling of submission
But the main hinderance is
Can I do that?
Am I that strong enough?
If my better half
Also had some past
Then I guess we can help each other
But what if not?
Then I think I will have to
Trust her
Believe her
That I can do it
Because no doubt
She will be wanting me
I will be wanting her
Badly enough
To do ANYTHING
And I guess
Being strong
Will be counted
Under anything

Intervention !!

For so many years

I didn’t know

The existence of such

A beauty queen

Nor she knew

That I existed

Then fate intervened

We were introduced

And so began

A story

A story of knowing

A story of trust

A story of likeness

A story of love

Time went by

As in days &

Weeks & months

And things were

Adding up for both

She doubted whether

I was the One she needs

I knew for sure

She is the One I ever needed

And it was good

How we both spent

Time & moments together

Now she realized

I surely am the One

She needed

She loved me loads

And I loved her a lot

Or to say the truth

She loves me loads

And I love her a lot

But fate had some

Other vicious plans

And its intervention

Separated us

But not the love

We shared for each other

In our hearts

And I know that

We both curse

Fate & time

For bringing

The right person &

The best person

At wrong time

But are happy to

Have been an important

Part of each other’s life

Even for less time

But that time was AMAZING !!

Fate & Time

may control how we end up

But they can never control

The way I deeply feel

for you Gurl !!

Knowing your beauty..

Seeing your beauty
Made me stared
At you for 20 seconds
Knowing your beauty
Will make me love you
For endless of time
Because your beauty
Is not limited to physicality
But also your caring
Your sharing your crying
Your laughing your feeling
Your excitement your anger
Your happiness your neutrality
Your naughtiness your ignorance
Your little joys your dancing
Your smiles your loving
And to know your beauty
I would give all my time
Just to be with you
And let you know me
And know you back 🙂

I dedicate myself to you..

I dedicate

My life

My soul

My heart

My mind

And my love

To you

And it’s true

For everything you do

I dedicate myself

To you…!!

Difference between E and I…

Think about your present
And the future
And life will be b’E’tter
Think about your past
And life will be b’I’tter
And that’s how its always is..
Do you agree??

I shouldn’t have slept !!

I have never been
A big fan of sleep
As I feel that something
Will be missed
And it happened again
Still continues the trend
And I hope that I will
Not repeat it
I kept you waiting
Waiting for the whole night
I was all asleep
With you in my dreams
And you were awake
Waiting in reality
I feel so bad
To have kept you waiting
You told you were busy
With other friends
But I know deep down
You were hoping
That I shouldn’t had slept
So early
Which was unlike me
But then I woke up
To see your missed calls
And I feel so bad
And I know you have slept
We are together in your dreams
And now its my turn to wait
Till you wake up
Which is always very late
But this I deserve and
I am all happy to wait
And think about the good times
We spend & talk & cherish
Its all morning
And let me try something new
As in a walk to keep
My waiting all real
And occupied
Just thinking that you
Look most beautiful
While sleeping.

P.S. : I hate sleep for sure !!

Still picture of you..

I saw you walk away from me

Into the misty road ahead

For that very last time

With your hair tied in a bun

With orchids in one hand

And your cell phone in other

It was a difficult thing to see

And thankfully you didn’t look back

Or else you would had seen

The few drops of tears on the ground

And a confused expression on my face

But then I realized why you didn’t look back

Because if you would had done

Then I would had seen

Your face with spoiled makeup on cheeks

Your kajal all over your eyes

And all excitement of meeting me gone

And then I remembered what you said

Two months back

‘Darshith life is not only about you and me

Its about everything and our families too’

And I felt at that time what you said made sense

But didn’t ever thought that this one sentence

Will rob you away from me

And now all I am left with is our memories

And the still picture of your hair with bun

And phone and orchids and SILENCE !!

Afraid of what not..

We are so very afraid

Afraid of the known

Afraid of the unknown

Afraid of being rejected

Afraid of not meeting the expectations

Afraid of giving it a try

Afraid of keeping it in the heart

Afraid of letting go

Afraid of letting in

Afraid of the stormy night

Afraid of the peaceful dream

Afraid of the closeness

Afraid of the distances

Afraid of being in a limelight

Afraid of being ignored

Afraid of reaching greater heights

Afraid of not giving it a try

Afraid of daily routine

Afraid of the buried past

Afraid of the uncertain future

Afraid of the being a burden

Afraid of speaking up

Afraid of showing true emotions

Afraid of hiding true emotions

Afraid of what to do

Afraid of what not to do

Afraid of anything

Afraid of everything

Afraid of the never ending list

Afraid of life crawling away

Afraid of the people walking away

Afraid of things falling apart

Afraid of the choosing sides

Afraid of not following your heart

Afraid of following your heart & getting nowhere

Afraid of the known

Afraid of the unknown

Afraid of being afraid

Afraid of being unafraid

The more afraid you are

The more courageous you will be

Provided you want to stop being afraid

And become unafraid and free.

The wrong person effect..

Run

Run away from me

Put thousands of miles between us

But when you embrace sleep

And when you will think of putting your heart & mind at rest

I will be there in your dreams

To make you realize that you indeed chose the wrong person..

Never again the same intensity..

Avoid all you want to

But deep in your heart

You know I made you feel alive

You skipped a beat for what you felt

Now avoiding won’t hide things

Because your actions have spoken

The unspeakable

If you won’t talk then also no regrets

Because you also made me feel the same gal

And that moment of the MUTUAL feeling

Contained LIFE HOPE SATISFACTION HAPPINESS

And you can get it all again

But not all together

Not sure your feelings will be reciprocated

Not with the same intensity!!