I shouldn’t have slept !!

I have never been
A big fan of sleep
As I feel that something
Will be missed
And it happened again
Still continues the trend
And I hope that I will
Not repeat it
I kept you waiting
Waiting for the whole night
I was all asleep
With you in my dreams
And you were awake
Waiting in reality
I feel so bad
To have kept you waiting
You told you were busy
With other friends
But I know deep down
You were hoping
That I shouldn’t had slept
So early
Which was unlike me
But then I woke up
To see your missed calls
And I feel so bad
And I know you have slept
We are together in your dreams
And now its my turn to wait
Till you wake up
Which is always very late
But this I deserve and
I am all happy to wait
And think about the good times
We spend & talk & cherish
Its all morning
And let me try something new
As in a walk to keep
My waiting all real
And occupied
Just thinking that you
Look most beautiful
While sleeping.

P.S. : I hate sleep for sure !!

Counter clockwise moment..

I am trying to sleep staring at the ceiling of my room

Concentrating on the blades of the fan

How they are moving counter clockwise

And their peculiar movement brought back

All the hidden and long forgotten memories

It is as if I am looking on a projector

The blades of the fan not being any hindrance

I can see us talking on the couch

Laughing and teasing at the beginning

Being friends and exchanging numbers

Then talking to each other late nights

Trying to make the other smile when gloomy

Trying to make the other special

All those times of intermingled fingers

Of closeness and of intimate moments

All right there in front with the best smile

On her face and the feeling of completeness

On mine and the air filled with love and care

There were moments of tangos and dancing

And laughs and me on my knees

And she covering her face with her palm

There were moments of quarrels also

With her facing the other side

And me holding dairy milk but with vain

There were times of support also

When my Grandpa expired and she was there for me

Holding me right and trying her best to make me feel better

There were times of anger with no one letting go of ego

And not talking for weeks but just 1 sorry

1 smile was enough to make things straight

There were hugs and touches and locked lips and trust

It was US there and then a drop of tear

Rolled down from the corner of my right eye

It was like reality punched me at my gut

And all I could do was turn my side

Rub my face on the pillow

Hoping that she is happy and not going through the same phase

And not looking at the fan helped me

Avoid the past and gradually I was

Inside the blanket of sleep!!

That Go-to place..

Where will I find solace in this huge world

Where will I find wisdom

Where will I find respect for what I am

Where will I find hope to keep on moving

Where will I find solutions for all my problems

Where will I find the music I like

Where will I find freedom to speak my mind

Where will I find courage to follow my dreams

Where will I find that true happiness

Where will I find that pat on shoulder for giving it a try

Where will I find that brotherly hug after failure

Where will I find support to stand up after falling

Where will I find that hint of smile when my world’s falling apart

Where will I find a King’s hospitality

Where will I find comfort during loneliness

Where will i find my blessing in disguise

Where will I find my shadow even in darkness

Where will I find those teary eyes for my success

Where will I find my sunny morning after a stormy night

Where will I find another discordant tone to my song

Where will I find Robin to my Batman

Where will I find my list of incomplete things being completed

None other than a True friend’s heart!!

Let the tree grow within you..

What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger,

and Hope is one of those,

whereas, expectations leads to sadness, death, pain and agony,

so try to stay away from it.

Hope grows as days pass,

just like a tree from a seed.

It grows bigger, greener, stronger,

with its roots holding the soil firmly,

And it also provides shade in later stage.

Expectations decays and shortens your life,

Just like a contagious disease.

It gives pain, tears, sleeplessness,

And eats us from inside and be the reason for our death.

So, whenever you want to help,

Plant a tree or cure someone else’s disease.

Kill the disease before it kills you,

Love the shade of the tree before it leaves you.

Grow and let others grow.