I shouldn’t have slept !!

I have never been
A big fan of sleep
As I feel that something
Will be missed
And it happened again
Still continues the trend
And I hope that I will
Not repeat it
I kept you waiting
Waiting for the whole night
I was all asleep
With you in my dreams
And you were awake
Waiting in reality
I feel so bad
To have kept you waiting
You told you were busy
With other friends
But I know deep down
You were hoping
That I shouldn’t had slept
So early
Which was unlike me
But then I woke up
To see your missed calls
And I feel so bad
And I know you have slept
We are together in your dreams
And now its my turn to wait
Till you wake up
Which is always very late
But this I deserve and
I am all happy to wait
And think about the good times
We spend & talk & cherish
Its all morning
And let me try something new
As in a walk to keep
My waiting all real
And occupied
Just thinking that you
Look most beautiful
While sleeping.

P.S. : I hate sleep for sure !!

Game of tiptoeing..

When I was a kid,

I used to tip toe go to kitchen,

During the noon time,

When my mother was asleep,

So that I can have some cream biscuits,

Without her knowledge.

But in the evening,

She calls me and takes my class,

For eating those biscuits on a regular basis.

She didn’t changed the place of those biscuits,

Because she loved my tip-toeing and having those biscuits,

And thinking that I can fool my mother,

Who know me more than I know myself.

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Now, the table has turned.

I loved her beauty, her smile, her truthfulness,

And this time, my mother tip-toed,

And went to meet her and said,

To leave me and go far away from me,

Because my father don’t like her,

And my girl left me, without telling me,

And I thought that it was fate and we weren’t meant to be a together,

But then when I came to know what had really happened,

I cursed my mother, my girl, everyone, even God,

Because then I hated this game of tip-toe,

This game of pretendness.

This game of keeping cards close to your chest,

This game of not putting everything on the table,

This game of thinking that others are fool,

And you are the only smart guy.

I hate this sham!!

Stormy night!!

When things aren’t going my way,

when the wind is blowing against me,

when I need a solution, I encounter more problems,

when the pressure keeps on building,

when I feel suffocated, nauseated, locked inside a cage,

when my shouts & yells aren’t heard by any,

when I pinch myself, hoping that it’s a nightmare,

when I have to go through the stormy night,

when I can’t take anybody’s help,

because the people who used to help me,

are themselves the creators of this stormy night.

I can’t sleep, even if I want to,

time is getting stretched with my thoughts,

sweat is on my brow, just a hint of it,

my brain is working at a crawling speed, if not standstill,

I have to find a solution soon,

and bring an end to this stormy night.

Outside, it’s all cool breeze,

crickets chirping, dead silence of a calm night,

Inside, it is a battle, storm, chaos, helter skelter,

and I don’t know how to tame this storm,

I just want this night to end,

end it soon enough without any more problems,

and, come tomorrow morning I will be a hero,

an amateur, who stood his ground, to prove his worth,

a sailor, who had a troubling yet successful voyage,

a fighter, who despite the odds, won.

So wrong then..

He wanted not to hear it,

he knew he had failed,

he wanted it to get rubbed off of his name,

he wanted never to be linked to it,

he wanted people to forget it,

how he never tried and failed,

he wanted no part of the world,

in which a single soul knows about his failure,

he wanted to start things afresh,

he wanted to try once more,

he wanted to succeed,

he wanted to be happy,

he wanted others to be happy due to him,

he wanted others to smile looking at him and not frown,

he wanted others to help him and not walk away,

he wanted all this because no one wanted him.

He was selfish, cruel, unkind, careless, strict, egoist, unmindful in his youth,

he thought what he did was nothing but just RIGHT & PERFECT,

and, now when he looks back,

deep within he knows, he had been nothing but all WRONG,

and for that his whole life is a failure and now he is old,

no one cares for him just like he didn’t in old times,

now he is alone, diseased, with no one at his bedside,

waiting to leave this world and make it a better place for others.

Ain’t got!!

Poor ain’t got money,

Rich ain’t got peace,

Terrorists ain’t got humanity,

Politicians ain’t got votes,

Teachers ain’t got time,

Students ain’t got opportunities,

Haters ain’t got love,

Lovers ain’t got faith,

Parents ain’t got responsibilities,

Kids ain’t got patience,

Managers ain’t got resources,

Resources ain’t got skills,

Comedians ain’t got fame,

Actors ain’t got privacy,

Laborers ain’t got future,

Lawyers ain’t got witnesses,

Detectives ain’t got proof,

Customers ain’t got bargain,

Producers ain’t got profit,

But, they all got one thing same,

All crave for some thing or the other in their own ways.

Poverty gnaws all.

P.S.: This was a topic asked by another close friend. Title was ‘Poverty’. Hope I did justice.

Different!!

Different names,

Different voices,

Different heights,

Different smell,

Different ways,

Different lives,

Different interests,

Different smiles,

Different emotions,

Different perspectives,

Different reasons,

Different commitments,

Different goals,

Different souls,

Different thoughts,

Different destinations,

Different centuries,

Different societies,

Different civilizations,

Different gait,

Different styles,

Different personality,

Different DNA,

Different finger-prints,

Different you,

Different me,

But yet, we’re ALL THE SAME!!

Reminding myself!!

I am difficult to understand,

I am bitter to enemies,

I am better to friends.

I am always smiling around,

Even though I am angry inside.

I am confused,

And can ask you confusing things.

All I am sure of is,

I am living, not existing,

I am joyous, I am dancing,

I am reading, I am singing,

I am full of energy,

I am helping, I am a bit selfish,

I go an extra mile to make you happy.

And now, I am reminding myself of who I am.

That Phone call

-Phone call of 1 minute with just no one speaking and listening to your HELLO, HELLO, ANYONE THERE??

-Phone call of 2 minutes to give a sad news of the death of a family member.

-Phone call of 5 minutes from school principal to the parent of a naughty kid for suspension.

-Phone call of 10 minutes from sister regarding the guy she loves and wants to tell about him to parents.

-Phone call of 20 minutes with an ex so that you can call it truce and walk on to your different ways.

-Phone call of 30 minutes with parents to make is realize how much they miss their child and want to see us as it’s been aeons.

-Phone call of 40 minutes with a girl so that you can know her and make her realize how much she means to you.

-Daily phone call of 1 hour with your love partner to tell her how beautiful she looks and what all you can do and will do to make her happy and smiling. To make her realize that she make you the one who you are.

-Phone call of 2 hours from a chaddi-buddy after so long and talk about all the things you both have gone through and all seems as if you just met yesterday.

-Phone call from a stranger giving condolences for the death of your parent and making you realize that many people don’t have things which you have and you probably don’t feel oblige to value.

-Sometimes a miss call from a known number which was deleted years back can also bring a difference in your thinking and help you prioritize things and people.

It’s been always a phone call that make you rush through the traffic and go to meet that special one when they are in trouble.

I think we all always have had some of these phone calls in our lives and it makes us realize that just a phone call can make us take a new step to a new life or help us put a period to an old good life ended successfully.

We all hope that we don’t get the less durationed phone calls because those are the ones with some reality checks. But again, those phone calls open ways for you to see this world from a new perspective and march on a new road and follow your dreams. But face-to-face conversation hold the most important priority for me till date.

If one door is closed, be assured that 2 new are opened. You just have to do some hard work to find those 2 new opened doors.

Are you afraid of being lost??

This world is so big, vast, wide that small people like me, like you don’t matter much when seen from Arial view. We think that we are important and we surely are but will we always stay important to the cause of this earth? Will we be always remembered or will be lost? Will be extinct? Will be forgotten??

Its difficult to say this now. But we all are afraid that we may be lost and forgotten of our existence. And if that happens while we are alive & breathing, is a big blow. We all always want to remembered, want to be disturbed, want to be poked no matter we like it or not.

How do we achieve this feat of getting lost while being alive? It’s simple and easy. We don’t do anything for others and you are just “puff” & gone. Humanity is the thing which should always be within us to feel alive, special, peaceful. We don’t have to always think of what we will get if we do something or the other. If possible try to do things without thinking about what YOU will get and instead think what others will benefit from you.

Simple rule is don’t allow yourself to be lost and you will never be lost. And you will not be lost by doing the things that you love to do and want to share with this world. Just socializing is not the way of being present. You have to be present for others without thinking that will they do the same for you. Help others and you will surely be rewarded by mental peace, satisfaction, happiness to say the least. These things are far more important than any materialistic rewards.

One can be present also within the memories of a stranger. Because when this stranger after having a hell of a day sees you smile and exchange a nod while crossing the path, can make his day better and bring a smile to his face & life. This single simple moment will keep you alive forever in his memories. It will urge that stranger also to spread happiness and help being alive and never get lost in someone else’s memory.

One don’t need binoculars to found himself. Just a sacred consciousness to find himself. And in finding himself, he also finds those who matters to him and will help him being found & alive & happy.

Find yourself & others,
Darshith.

Being Happy is an option!

There are always 2 sides of a coin. Either you select heads or tails.
Similarly, each and every situation in life can have 2 sides. We can name these sides. Pull and Push.

Every second we live is an option.. And every second we choose..
To live or die..
To breathe this very second or not..
To wake up early in the morning or not..
To let the kids have icecream or not..
To go to a temple or not..
To make ourselves smile or not..

Yes, we decide at every second we live.. We may not realise it because we have gotten used to it that the option and the decision are taken as a reflex but they are still options.
They sometimes pull you back or push you ahead.

From these names itself you can know what these 2 sides do. Either they pull you back and try to halt your progress, or they push you through the darkened difficult path by providing lights on the way.

Its totally in the nature of an individual, how we perceive the situation and then decide whether we want to be pulled or pushed by it.
Now, choosing is difficult but all decisions comes with its baggage of NOT choosing the other side.
So make sure whatever side you choose, you stay happy with it. And,make up your mind that you could never had been more happy if ever you had choosen the other side.

Winning over our mind is the most difficult battle. Even difficult than being in the death bed or being in a free falling to-be-crashed aeroplane, because if we are able to make truce with our mind regarding the happiness and closure we have in the present, then that’s victory and death can’t snatch that feeling of peace from you.

Not every situations are same, so an individual have to analyze and decide whether he will be more HAPPY(comfortable and happy are NOT the same words), if he pull or push.
You can take suggestions of those who you think can guide you, but take decision yourself and hold your stand after that and don’t point fingers to those who helped you in taking decisions. It’s you who gotta live with the decision.

Keep choosing whats best,
Darshith.