Darkest hour cometh

He was confused

Lost his sanity

Lost his judgement

Lost his senses

Lost his happiness

Left his home

Left his family

Left his life behind

And he drove all night

To uncertainty

To sanity

To mental stability

The destination of the drive

Could not be found on any maps

Because it was within him

Somewhere hidden

And in hibernation

It was on him to search

It’s hiding habitat

And discover it

He was alone

With his grief

And his demons

And it was him who could

Find a way to shut them

All down and bid them goodbye

He knew they were toxic

And then the midnight

Became pitch dark darkness

Just before the dawn

The darkest hour cometh

He was not at all drowsy

Because the fear and sadness

Had shaken his world upside down

He knew he can tackle them

When he started the car engine

Now When the dawn was just some

Minutes away

He decided it’s time to

Go back

To the same fucking life

Of insecurities and chaos

And just when he was about to

Reach his home and

Go into the arms of

The source of all his problems

He chose the most

Easy and difficult way out

He drove his car

Into the trunk of the banyan tree

And before bidding goodbye

To his demons

He had to bid goodbye to

The unsatisfying, unhappy

Bitchy world

He was a part of..

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This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

P.S. : Today’s choice is Your decision by Alice in Chains ❤ Hope your weekend is going strong and awesome 🙂

Mental Indigestion..

Are you ready to die today?

A simple question, which can bring back fears and sorrow to you and also to your near and dear ones. No one is ever ready, I guess.

If you’re ready, then man, you’re at peace with your life and have lived it to the fullest and no matter what you got, more happiness or pain, you have accepted that and made your peace with it. You found your closure.

We are a moving vessel of thoughts, imaginations, hope, trust, promises, sacrifices, love, betrayals, mood-swings, double-crossings and many more. We have either done these things or have been on the receiving end and also the combination of both.

At the end, we gotta understand the natural fact that we are humans. We make mistakes, even blunders and desire for forgiveness. But does our desire meet what we deserve?

Sometimes we are forgiven but mostly we are punished, if not physically then torture or separation or something related. At that moment, we think it’s better to die and be done with all these. But, is it real?

If we die, we won’t feel anything, not the pain or the happiness. There will be no WE. No I. There will be nothing. Not even nothing.
So, if hard days are what you are going through, then talk it out. Share it with your closest of friends. Or better, write it down.

No one needs to know, if you are not okay with that. But, don’t keep it all inside. It creates mess. Chaos. Indigestion.
Stomach indigestion can be cured with some meds. But, mental indigestion can be fatal. It leads to drastic, life-changing decisions, which should be avoided at all cost.

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See how powerful our little brain. The left portion, which controls our right half of the body and the right portion, which controls the left half of the body, all so wonderful and controlling us. For me, it’s like a temple. And if, some mental indigestion is to occur here, then this EVER SO BEAUTIFUL ABODE will be destroyed and you will never be satisfied.

The best way for that to NOT happen is accept the reality and be social. Talk about the problems and see others perspectives. We never know, someone else’s brain might be more beautiful than ours. And, we can learn from it, make our’s even more evolved. Treasure this beauty, this brain, it’s thoughts, this life. It’s your’s. Not mine, not anybody else’s. Make it beautiful inside and it will surely reflect outside.

We won’t get another life(may be I am implying for re-birth, but in that case also, the situations will be different than the present ones), so hold on to things and make it all count. Love, live, smile. Pain will come and go, just as the happiness. But, it all depends for HOW LONG you hold on to that feeling.

If pain comes, hold it, see it, feel it and then let go. So that, when you encounter it again, you can know, “Oh, this Pain! We have crossed path before and the last time was not so good. I will better skip meeting it this time”. See, it becomes so easy.

If happiness comes, hold it, see it, feel it, enjoy it and here, you can KEEP IT. In your heart, it will always be there as your fondest of memory.

Now, if you have found this kind of happiness and calmness, I think you are ready to die(or you won’t feel regret, if death comes and takes you away) but if not, then work towards this feeling.
When you will encounter, no one knows. But, if you think positive, then that moment will never be far.
You deserve to be happy and everyone desires to be happy.
Let’s try to match our desire and deserve to our best potential.