One early morning

Life is a loop
Comprising of pain, happiness
Expectations, crests, troughs
And all these are written
In the blank pages of my diary
Sometimes scribbled
Sometimes corrected
Sometimes left all bare
For others to read
For her to read
One early morning
I saw her on the blue sofa
Which faces the balcony
Which faces the sea
And she had her specs on
Wow, I was so happy to see her
Wearing specs because she seldom does
And, she was reading the
Scribbled, corrected words loudly
As if to let me know of her doing
And I went to her
And picked her up and sat on the sofa
And made her sat on my lap
And she said, “Papa, what have you written?”
And her innocent sweet words and glow in her eyes
Acted as a time machine
And I was taken to my past
To the love of my live
To my better half
In her arms and the smiles exchanged
The kisses and hugs shared
While Masoom just hugged me
And slept on my chest
Just like her Mom used to 🙂

This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

More than I thought I could..

I want to sleep beside you. You resting with your head on my stretched left hand and reading a book. I ask you to read loudly so I can also listen. I listen attentively to what you say. Then I stare at you while you keep reading from the book. You start feeling uncomfortable. Your voice starts to stammer. The more awkward you feel, the more my lips curve in a naughty smile. You look at me & ask, “What did I just read now?”. And I swear I didn’t hear anything she said or asked and looking into your eyes, I say, “I think I love you more than I thought I could“ and you smile through your eyes and your cheeks and then met our lips. Book kept aside & time to tend to the burning heat inside.

Gone are the days..

Gone are the days of drinking from the same glass
Gone are the days of whole night of love making
Gone are the days of staring at each other among the crowd
Gone are the days of stealing kisses in parties
Gone are the days of sending intimate mails when apart
Gone are the days of your arms around me
Gone are the days of your beautiful lips on mine
Gone are the days of fighting and patching up
Gone are the days of smiles shared and tears cared
Gone are the days of me tucking your hair behind your ear
Gone are the days of you kissing my weird nose and making it blush
Gone are the days of me apologizing for my silly mistakes
Gone are the days of exchanging sorries and hugging each other
Gone are the days we used to love
Gone are the days of the beautiful time spent together

 
 

Memories are all we have
They will also start to dwindle
After some months and some years
You won’t remember me in your mind
But, I can just hope
That deep in your heart
You will never forget me
How I amde you feel
How I could make the butterflies flutter
Everytime we talked and
Everytime we met
How I cared for you
Al these are my hopes
Reality, on the other hand,
Can be different
For better or worse
And I should and
I will accept that
But, I never
Regreted any single day
Or any single moment
I spent with you
Now, we just gotta move on
And, hope that our hearts
Will be connected to each other
By the thinnest of thread
of Love and never be apart

The fall and the grief..

I haven’t said

That I love you

And there’s no need also

I know I love you

You know I love you

And when you avoid me

Because you are confused

About your thing for me

I become a bit depressed

And confuse myself

And all I have to do is

Look at your pictures

Your smiles

Your eyes

Your nature

It makes me fall in love

With you

Over and over again

And falling is not bad

Falling is heaven

Falling is calm

Falling is serene

I feel alive

Its when I hit the ground

Grief shows up

So if I keep on falling

I am always in heaven

Being worried about the grief

Means I am not living my life

So when the grief time nears

I make sure I find

Another reason

Excluding the previous

Million reasons

To fall for you again

By enjoying the fall

And feeling the heaven

I assure you..

You gladly enter my heart

Latching yourself in

You want to feel the heaven

You want to be my Queen

I assure you, my lady

My reality will be your dream

Best in me..

Liking you was not a choice for me
Loving you was not a choice for me
You were never a choice for me
Seeing you the first time
You became my numero uno
Now I can’t have you
Now I can’t not have you
And I am stuck
With your friendly talks
With your teases
With your leg pulling
With your knowing unknown feelings
With your unknowing known feelings
I will try my best
To do the best for you
Because doing the best for you
Will bring out the best in me

P.S. : At the end of writing this poem,I remembered there is a song BEST IN ME (YouTube link) by Blue. One of my favorite songs also 🙂

The Dark Side Of Love..

Unconditional love?

Nah, it doesn’t fascinate me.

Well, having said that, everybody seems to be using this word these days, but seldom does anyone follow it. For me, love is something which happens with your growth in maturity – as an individual and within the soul as well. It’s not about smiling, giggling, but it’s about caring and facing the difficulties – at the back end of it. Every day you get up and do your routine work, nothing really special to remember. Nothing really matters. What matters is the image that comes before you close your sleepy eyes. The image that is inside you all day – which tends to flash every now and then. And you don’t have the sense to realise the destination where you actually end up landing without any control whatsoever. That is the effect of that image – anywhere, everywhere. This image is nothing but your love. Without her, you tend to hate everything and everyone. At work, she gets into your work, your reports, your records. At leisure, she is never out of your mind. The songs you love, kill you with her thoughts. All you want is to consume her love, her earthly body, her mind, her soul and even her spirit. You wanna own her completely. You can’t stand the sight of her talking to anyone else. You can’t stand the sight of her ignoring you. This is not unconditional love. This form of love is unique and destructive in nature. But it is by far purest too – as you don’t really give a damn to anyone else. For you, love and the object of love is the same and the only one, nothing else. This kind of love is destructive in nature ’cause it can harm your relationship with others and you turn villain in the eyes of worldly people – but you’re the hero of your own story. But what happens when your loved one gets to know about all these, about the real you? She will be over the moon, overwhelmed with joy which has no bounds. A woman wants nothing but loyalty. And this loyalty drives her crazy.

Unconditional love?

Nah, it’s not for me, not for her, not for us.

About the author: It’s not me. One of my cousins have written this post. He asked me not to reveal him & also mentioned that THIS IS A WORK OF FICTION 😛 I seriously doubt this 😉 But, he has been a support for me always and appreciates and guides me while writing. Hope you liked it and you can also express yourself in the comments section 😀

Sober or Submission..

I am sober
You ask how long?
Almost 2 years
But..
Let me first define
Which Sober I am referring to
I am talking about
Being with a girl
Liked & loved by her
Like & love her back
I had someone in my life
Someone special
Things were all good
But unavoidable circumstances
Blessed us with parting ways
And it took some time to get over
And I hope it is all good now
But at some point
I will have to submit myself
To someone else
And I am also sure
It will be a mutual feeling
The feeling of submission
But the main hinderance is
Can I do that?
Am I that strong enough?
If my better half
Also had some past
Then I guess we can help each other
But what if not?
Then I think I will have to
Trust her
Believe her
That I can do it
Because no doubt
She will be wanting me
I will be wanting her
Badly enough
To do ANYTHING
And I guess
Being strong
Will be counted
Under anything

Intervention !!

For so many years

I didn’t know

The existence of such

A beauty queen

Nor she knew

That I existed

Then fate intervened

We were introduced

And so began

A story

A story of knowing

A story of trust

A story of likeness

A story of love

Time went by

As in days &

Weeks & months

And things were

Adding up for both

She doubted whether

I was the One she needs

I knew for sure

She is the One I ever needed

And it was good

How we both spent

Time & moments together

Now she realized

I surely am the One

She needed

She loved me loads

And I loved her a lot

Or to say the truth

She loves me loads

And I love her a lot

But fate had some

Other vicious plans

And its intervention

Separated us

But not the love

We shared for each other

In our hearts

And I know that

We both curse

Fate & time

For bringing

The right person &

The best person

At wrong time

But are happy to

Have been an important

Part of each other’s life

Even for less time

But that time was AMAZING !!

Fate & Time

may control how we end up

But they can never control

The way I deeply feel

for you Gurl !!

Knowing your beauty..

Seeing your beauty
Made me stared
At you for 20 seconds
Knowing your beauty
Will make me love you
For endless of time
Because your beauty
Is not limited to physicality
But also your caring
Your sharing your crying
Your laughing your feeling
Your excitement your anger
Your happiness your neutrality
Your naughtiness your ignorance
Your little joys your dancing
Your smiles your loving
And to know your beauty
I would give all my time
Just to be with you
And let you know me
And know you back 🙂