Taming my own demons

It’s difficult, just like everything else. Or, it’s easy, just like everything else.

Henry Ford rightly said, “Whether you think you can, or you think you can’t — you’re right.”

With me, it’s the same. And I am sure, with you all, it’s the same too. But my inner heart says that most of us just fail to have a strong will power of DOING IT.  To have a strong will power means to have a strong character. To have a strong character means to have a strong guidance throughout our life(childhood, youth, and next). To have good guidance means to have good people around ourselves everywhere(home, office, friends). So finally, to have good people around ourselves, we ourselves have to be good first. To be a good person, we have to be good at heart.

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To become or remain good we have to tame our demons, regularly. It’s similar to an app’s update because new changes and features keep on coming. Or, new bugs like the Ransomware virus ruling the market since 2 days. So, it’s important to evolve and keep on taming our demons to stay good and then only good things will happen.

How to tame our demons? Good that you ask. First, we have to be strong mentally to face them, keeping aside our fear of facing and also the fear of losing. Then, we have to prepare for the face-off. What to do when we actually face our demons? What tricks we can play? Like Mohandas Ranchod Das’ words from the Movie ‘3 idiots’, i.e., ‘Aal izz welll’, we have to keep on reminding ourselves that no matter the outcome, it’s always in our favor or whatever happens, happen for a reason and we just have to try and forget about the outcome.

Taming is not an easy process and a time consuming one too but it definitely gives the expected result if tried regularly and with dedication. Many try to stop smoking or drinking or biting nails(yeah, that’s me!) but we fail the first time. Forget the first time, we fail the 50th time too. I have always failed in the case of biting nails but in the back of my mind, it’s there. I want to get rid of this bad habit and someday I will. When I will be mentally ready and then, I will let you all know about it.

We have to keep on fighting and trying to be better the next day always. That’s the key. One of the other reasons is in the below video. Feel free to have a look.

 

P.S.: Today’s song pick is All my Loving of Paul McCartney. I love this song and this guy and Paul is in Pirates of Carribean 5 movie so it will be interesting. See you soon and how are you all? Miss me? Want me to travel to a place? Want me to gift you a book? Please let me know in the comment section ❤

 

 

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I am so happy

Presently I am reading The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka. It’s a great book and I am liking it till now. Just some 40 add pages are remaining (total pages are 100) 😀

I took the bus from office to home in the evening today. I took out the book from my bag to read. I saw the bus conductor approaching, I kept the book aside, took out my wallet. What happened next was astonishing for me.

The conductor came to me and instead of taking money from me, took the book and started reading. I was stunned. You ask why? Because in India, there are very less literate people who would opt for such a profession and he was totally engrossed in the book.

He went to collect money from other passengers and again came and sat beside me reading the book. I was so happy seeing him reading the book.

I wish he could read more and have a good life just as he’s imagined for himself. He is B.A. pass (Bachelor of Arts) and due to some family issues he chose this. I gave him the book and we shook hands and at the end of my trip, we both were happy souls ❤

P.S.: Ed Sheeran’s Shape of you is my new favorite 😀 I secretly took a pic of the guy reading. Hope this is good.16144932_1184966048223110_1196503601_o

2016 in nutshell

2016 is long gone,10 days into 2017, and this year has already started leaving its footprints in all our lives. Be sure that I ain’t gonna bore you with the highlights of 2016.

But I would just show you what all good things happened with me(read Smiles here and Smiles there 😛 )

I started making Vlogs and I think that was the best decision ever because it widens my thoughts and helps me help others in whatever way possible. Presently I have 65 subscribers on YouTube. My aim is to reach 1000 by the end of next year(I think I am being far fetched but I want to achieve the figure).

I also started meeting blogger friends in real life and it couldn’t be any better.

In 2016, I have met —

In 2017, I am going to meet whom all —

  • Bhavya
  • Rupali (you had to be in 2016 list :P)
  • KP
  • Upen
  • Enigma
  • Karthik
  • Jackie
  • NJ
  • Sri Di

Reading books was slow this year but I am happy with the number of books I have been gifted and I have gifted, so 2017, BEWARE, I am going to read much more 😉

So, let’s see what happens this year but be sure there will be more meetings and more videos for sure 😉

P.S.: I also wish to write more blogs this year as compared to last year 😉 Stay tuned because I will be sharing many more videos very soon in my YouTube Channel Darshith Badiyani.

Pillars of my life

“No, I can’t.”, I said.

Dimple said irritatingly, as always, “I am not gonna ask again. Just do as directed.”

“But, you know that I can’t because….” and I was shown THE SILENCE sign by her, i.e., index finger on lips asking me to OBEY as said. I didn’t say a single word more. I knew that if I don’t do as asked, she’ll be mad at me and I didn’t wanted that. She’s been my support since the beginning of time. Yes, she’s my sister.

I write this post not because of any knowledge sharing purpose. This is just a way to show my love for my sisters and the people who have always suppoerted me through thick and thin.

Dimple has always been the one who has believed in me from the start, even before I started believing in myself. Whenever we converse, I say things like above, that “I can’t” or “I do not know how to do this.” and there she comes to my rescue(over and over again), to make me believe, to make me feel confident about the stuff I do and asking me to TRY because failure/success is the result(or the output) and it ain’t in my hands. What I can do best is give my best shot(or in cases, multiple attempts) and that will be the input and there should be no lack of that.

She’s awesome and then there comes another Angel. Her name’s Pooja. She’s younger to me but her thoughts just makes me feel and realize, “How come she’s so matured and can think straight?” I was naive and a fool when I was her age and then comes up with questions and explanations, which I didn’t think and it makes me think. Questions about Life, Love, pain, sacrifice and all I try is to answer as per my  best knowledge.

Both of them are not book lovers but what I love about them is when I go to a book store/vendor to buy books, they pitch in with all their interest and help me choose good books and also bargain the prices. Wish I could do the same when they go for shopping but that I can’t do 😛

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New B’lore book collection. Want your hands on them? 😛

P.S.: I love you both a lot and all my other cousin sisters too. You all have been a source of inspiration for me in the ways, which I can’t explain and you won’t understand. Cheers to love. Cheers to life. I am happy to have such great people(family, friends, colleagues) in my life. See you all soon. And, today’s song pick is Drag me down sung by SOUMITRI & DARSHITH 😀 Yeah, you heard it right. We sung this song, so feel free to listen and share your feedback.

As of now..

If you’re a daughter or a son, then please read along.

I won’t boast myself as a good, obedient son of my parents. Why I say this is because I have not lived my life as they wanted. I have spoken back to them. I have tried to make them see my point of view even though my view was hazy & blurred. I have disappointed them as a whole.

I have scored bad reputation points in the main phases of life. But, I have made sure that I score good reputation points in normal/ordinary scenarios.

I would proudly say that my parents have imparted good knowledge & behavior into me. Yes, I am proud of that! But I haven’t learned ALL of those from them. I have learned some of those from books, from my friends, and from the parents of my friends.

I love to learn. I love to see life in every tiny situation. My mother(Mumma) & I have a custom of going to a temple walking once in a while. That temple is 7 km away from our home. We walk to the temple & chant God’s name during the walk. FYI, I loved the movie ‘The Walk‘ & it helped me make vlogs for AtoZ challenge. Check them on my new YouTube channel, Darshith Badiyani(I know I gotta name it something relatable. but for now, this is all I got).

Some background knowledge would be appreciated by all. So, about Mumma, she is a typical Indian lady. She’s obedient to her husband and makes sure her kids are independent & well fed & well learned. She has taught numerous lessons to 3 of us(my sisters & me).

Mumma was a victim of domestic violence. To know more, read Fist fight. I hope it has stopped but then anger is something, which can invade our happy space within a jiffy.

Whenever I see my mother, I remember a quote, ‘This world has not turned bad because of the rising of the bad people but because of the silence of the good people.’

I always try to make Mumma realize this that she has to speak up. She remains silent in scenarios where she should speak, where she should shout, where she should wake everybody up with her shrieks. Yet she chooses to remain silent. She still does the same. I feel bad. I feel vulnerable. But, then I think of how she feels & I feel numb.

So, back to the present. Some weather updates, okay? There is a high alert in Orissa of a cyclone. So the weather remains unpredictable and classy. We were on the way to the temple, walking.

The uncertain weather showed it’s true face(winds blowing, trees doing the to-&-fro dance violently) & Mumma holds my arm. I was shocked. More shocked by the fact that Mumma was holding my arm with both her hands. I could sense her fear. I could feel her tremble. Truly speaking, I haven’t held the arm/hand of any girl publicly, even though I had a girlfriend once. So, this new public attachment was something new & alien to me.

I held Mumma’s hands. We walked ahead chanting God’s name. I felt confident to make her feel calm. I was scared, yes, but I had to act as if I was in control so that she can feel okay and seeing her feel okay, I can feel okay too. So, I knew this is a trick. A game played by nature to make me aware of how fearful my Mumma’s heart is. She’s yet vulnerable. But then we(all 3 of us) have to support her.

That walk was crucial to me. I learned things. I was chanting but my mind was wandering to the range of emotions we feel. Some emotions make a permanent place within us. We feel it & it feels us too. It becomes a parasite. It feeds on us. It becomes powerful each time the host feels it.

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I knew all this but that walk made me feel it. I can’t describe how confusing & wonderful thing life is. It all depends on us how and what we make of it.

Right now, my life is all chaos but then I am ready to face anything & everything that comes along. I may fail, but I would have tried. I would have given my best.

My opinions & thoughts might change/evolve with the passage of time but this post is what I feel & know as of now.

Smiles,
Darshith

AtoZ challenge Day06 (F for F&*%#)

Hello, friends! As the weekend nears, happiness is felt deeply.

“Smiles here & smiles there” has gone 1 level up from 1st April. I have made a YouTube channel in which I will share inspirational thoughts & other random yet relevant thoughts & also some of my personal experiences. You can subscribe to the channel @ Darshith Badiyani.

Check out the video on alphabet F. This video is slightly different from others as there is a slight twist in it. You better check that out.

P.S.: You can always like/comment/share/subscribe to my YouTube channel to get direct notifications. Today’s song pick is Fight song of Rachel Platten. People who inspire me with alphabet ‘F’ from the blogging world are NO ONE.

Can I be Santiago from The Alchemist?

I read this somewhere, “Dreams are wishes with strong determination” and how true is that. We all have dreams. Dreams to achieve success & happiness. Some pursue their dreams like Santiago from The Alchemist. Just as Santiago had to go through so many hurdles to achieve, we all have to too.

These hurdles shape us. Once we cross them, they define us. Most of us fear to cross these hurdles, fearing what will we find on the other side. That’s a mystery for sure but something which pursuers want and hence it’s not a hindrance for them to follow their dreams.

This world knows us by how many bucks we earn. This world is judgemental and one thing is sure that our happiness DOESN’T depend on this world’s verdict of our stature. To be happy we have to earn in our means. Doing things we love & then the work will be in our blood. It’s not that each one of us follows their heart and get into the profession they want to.

Similarly, I am an IT professional. I like the work but my dream profession would be being a librarian. I know it seems crazy but that is what I had in my mind once I saw our college library. It was huge & filled with study books. Only a handful of novels were there.

I want to be a librarian and keep it full with novels & books. I want to read all those books by being there day & night. No need of anyone’s company or any other thing. I wish someone would give me money for reading books I like 😀

Life is a constant struggle and the struggle is on and hope that I can be a librarian for a day. I have started buying books and the count has increased this year more than before. I am not able to read much nowadays, neither blogs or books, but I will start both it all again sooner.

As I was talking to a WP friend yesterday, she said, “Finally, good days are here to stay.” I could not believe less. Good days are here to stay for all. With our dream profession, good days turn into happy & peaceful days too 🙂

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This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

P.S.: Today’s pick is Six degrees of separation of The script 🙂 You can like my Facebook page and stay updated with all my posts 😉 Happy weekend ❤