Reins.

Aggression. Wildness. Control. Reins.

It’s all related to one another. We all want to have control over our lives, over the things that makes us happy, over our relationships, over how others make us feel. We want the reins of peace in our own hands. Always.

Most of our lives we wander in search of the reins but seldom find. We invest(read: waste) time for those reins. We give our sweat but fail. We may not accept but we are not always in control of our lives.

Why? Because there are many other factors that affect our lives. There’s job. There’re other independent thinking individuals. There’s ambition. There’s desire to reach those ambitions. As we can’t control those, not even for a single day, we think we can never control our lives.

There’s a difference, though. I will feel my life is not in my control when I am doing things I care less about. Why? Because at the moment, I am not interested in it. I say so because if I was interested, it would have been in my control. As I have no interest, I don’t understand it, it eludes me. It confuses me. It makes me feel inferior. It makes me feel recessive.

I want the control back. I want to hold the reins. But how? By developing interest, by showing eagerness, by trying to understand, I can gain control slowly. This is not rocket science. This is a simple art of understanding.

We don’t have to make things difficult. We have to find the easiest of solutions. It’s there either inside or outside of us. We just have to tune to it & a smile will find its way back home on your lips.

I crave for my smiles. But then my smiles are dependent on yours. So, being selfish, I have to make you smile, to smile myself.

P.S.: Today’s song pick is My song knows what you did in the dark of Fallout boy 🙂 Three cheers for holding our life’s reins. Happy weekend!

Nobody knows…

Nobody knows that I
Pray for your betterment

Nobody knows what it takes
To change the course of things
Just because you don’t want it that way

Nobody thinks how difficult it is
To handle this Herculean task

Nobody feels that I have given you the power
To choose your destiny
And if you choose
I have to write it all again
But I am up for it
Because I want you to try
No matter the outcome
You are given a life to fulfill yourself
Not satisfy others
Others should be of no concern to you
Live life
Be a little selfish
Choose your happiness
And if your happiness lies in the lines
Of others being happy
Then make others happy too
Listen to your heart
It is most innocent
Like a kid
Because it’s made by Me
And nobody knows what it feels
How YOU feel when your heart senses love
And I too have no control over your heart
I can just imagine the love I feel for you
Is the same love you feel for somebody else
My love is for the whole universe
Your love is for one person
Who means the universe to you

This nobody knows
Or everybody knows
But the realization hasn’t stuck them
May be they are waiting for me
To whisper this in their ears
But I want you to search for it
Show some proactive character
And I will give you more answers
Than you search for
And also give you some special gift
From the Pandora’s box
Because that’s also made by me
And I know what your heart desires
But you have to realize your desire
And prove it to me
So that I can convert your
Desire into deserving

This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative forIndian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

P.S.: Today’s song is Sorry that I loved you by Anthony Neely 😉 Monday is almost here 😦

For how long?

I am happy now

But for how long?

I am so sad

But for how long?

I have a feeling to end it all

But for how long?

I want to stay aloof

But for how long?

I don’t understand what is next

But for how long?

Will you be my partner?

But for how long?

Let us be together forever

But for how long?

Let there be peace in our lives

But for how long?

I want to keep kissing you

But for how long?

For how long

Do I need all these things

Till they will last

This period of how long

Is not something pre-defined

Or something static

It varies in various situations

And also on the people

Present in that situation

But for how long

Will my life depend on it?

For how long

Will I feel this pain?

For how long

Can I keep you happy?

For how long

Things will stay good?

For how long

Things will be worst?

Forget all this shit

The main thing is

For how long

Can I keep myself in control

From all these mere things

And keep accepting

And tackling the situations

And this power within

Will define all the time constraints..

That shirt !!!!

She had forgotten everything

Almost everything

I know because she didn’t reply back

Not to my mails or calls or messages

And I had also eventually moved on

With the fact scribbled in my mind

That I was not worth her

May be a bit in past but not anymore in present

And I was driving en-route office

And got a call from an unknown caller

I parked my car roadside

On receiving I heard nothing

Silence and some sobs after a while

And finally the voice I used to love once

She was all scattered at that moment

And I was too upon listening her sobs

I got out of my car and calmly asked

Her the reason for her sadness

And she was just crying loudly also

With hiccups

On insisting for long she replied

That just some moments back she

Was searching for an old gown of hers

And then she found THAT SHIRT

Which was what I had wore

When we became intimate the first time

And I asked her to keep it

And she used to wear the shirt

Everytime she missed me then

And finding that shirt made her realize

How wrong we both were and the ending

Of our story could had been different

But now everything was gone

And I know this feeling was just temporary

And thankfully she also felt the same

All she could say was that she would

Hang the shirt on the peg on the wall

Till sometime in future and

Reminisce the good ol days

I felt good that she at least contacted me

And I was back to my driver’s seat

And she again had the control over her life

And she got used to the feeling of that shirt

And it didn’t bring her those emotions back anymore

Now she knows how it felt when

I Looked at the shirt gifted by her

Which I had given to a needy

After some struggling days then !!