Pain in the head >> pain in the ass

Yo!

Making my stance clear, I have not suffered much health-related pain in my life, yet. The major and difficult chunk is yet to come(read old age-related health issues).

Still, from my amateur experience, I feel that headache is so dangerous and unsettling. It doesn’t let us sleep, eat, talk, or do any other thing properly.

Since my childhood, I have had very fewer interactions with a headache and when my father used to have a headache, I used to think, headaches are not that bad to not eat dinner or talk with anyone and go to bed early and feeling this crazy level of uneasiness.

Now, for me, the jolts of headaches are kind of regular and those times are unnerving. Nothing seems to make sense except getting rid of this pain in my head which is far more than all the pain in the ass wrt people and work.

Growing up makes us realize some things, either for better or for worse. A headache is definitely for the worse.

Sleep was something which always worked for me in almost every situation. Fight with someone, sleep on it. Mood off, sleep on it. Having problems understanding things, sleep on it. But with a headache, sleep doesn’t come so easily and so I have started relying on vomiting.

It’s not something that I can control but mostly it is because of internal chaos and the best way I have found is to get it out and then headache seems to pass by slowly and sleep starts coming my way.

Was this a rant? No!
Was this an informative blog? Definitely, no! Have I ever written anything informative? 😂
Was this just to eat up your time and make myself feel superior? C’mon! Now, don’t make me spill the truth 😋

P.S.: I watched a movie named Road to Sangam and it was good. It’s about how people from different religions (Hindu and Muslim) come together following the path of non-violence set by Mahatma Gandhi. This blog’s song is Girls like You by Maroon 5 ft. Cardi B. As always, new motivational videos coming on my YouTube channel, Darshith Badiyani 😉 And, I am reading How to win friends and influence people by Dale Carnegie. It is brilliant and better things related to the book are coming soon via blogs and vlogs. Also, credits to http://www.menshealth.com for the featured image.

Realization

What?

That is impossible. I don’t accept it. It is illogical.

How can I grow when time has stopped? I mean think, all the clocks in this world have stopped ticking & it is the same since I DON’T KNOW because time has stopped. Stopped DEAD! I am thinking and it implies that the second hand should do “its thing” of ticking faster than the other two hands. But it ain’t. And as it isn’t ticking, the other two are stagnant.

This is causing a fucking headache. Why is it happening? Is it just in my head? I am feeling dizzy. Short of breath. Oh! I think, I know the reason for all these things. I am dying and that’s why everything has stopped. Oh now I know, this is the time when I have to reminisce all of the good, the bad & the ugly moments of my life. No! Only the good. Who cares about the bad & the ugly? 

This is just a moment but it feels like it is made of years and decades & centuries from within. I am dying but with the good memories running as a slideshow in my head, I want to live. I have never wanted to stay more alive. Something’s kicking from inside asking me to stop all this & get out of this thing. I hate this feeling of being dead. Time being dead. When time stops dead, I am dead. We are all dead.

I have never experienced real death like this before but I have come very close to this feeling. You ask when?

It was when I failed in my Graduation final year. I realized that I have to study one more year and I was no way more knowledgeable than I was the year before. I wasted my whole year. From that day, I made a promise to myself that I won’t waste even a single day. There is so much to learn out there, only if we are open to see it and learn from it. And irrespective of whether we are alive or dead or forgotten, things will be moving because we will be wanting to learn. The day we stop to learn is the DOOMSDAY for us. We may take some time to realize it but let’s just hope that we realize it before it’s too late.

I woke up at the rising tone of my phone’s alarm and all sweaty. I was panting as if I just had been racing against Usain Bolt. Reality struck me, I was late for my final year exam of Graduation and was hoping against hope while traveling to college that WAS MY REALIZATION A BIT LATE?

This post is a part of Write Over the Weekend, an initiative for Indian Bloggers by BlogAdda.

P.S.: Don’t just sit back and relax. Go, learn but remember to visit again 😀 Happy weekend and today’s pick is Hotel california of Eagles 🙂