The struggle to make ends meet

I have seen the struggle
The struggle to feed oneself
The struggle to feed the family
The struggle to make ends meet
I cannot say that I have felt that struggle
Not specifically yet
But the pain is there to see
In the eyes of those who go through the same
The pride requesting them not to beg
But the hunger lowering their heads
And raising their palms for some money
For some help
To keep the hunger at bay
The desperate need of silencing
The bile juice which keeps on churning
Asking you to provide food to process
But life ain’t fair
We ain’t got no food
So, most of the times, we just drink water
With the hope that the next time
It will be some morsel of food
Instead of water going down our throats
This hope keeps us alive
Keeps us kicking
This spirit keeps us going
This pain makes us strong
We need to get out of our shells
And appreciate the people
Who are constantly going through this
Help them
Grow with them
Because not much can be achieved alone
But bigger and better things can be achieved together

P.S.: Today’s song pick is Out of Love by Alessia Cara. Have a grand week ahead.

Brand new ending..

Everybody wants everything
Everybody needs love
Everybody seeks peace
Everybody craves power
Everybody longs for that special one
Everybody desires happiness
Everybody avoids pain
Everybody loves smiles
Everybody deserves care
Everybody looks for beauty
Everybody wants to write their own story
But as each story has many characters
And each one of those
Impacts on the script
Similarly, each one of our known
And sometimes unknown people has a role
In OUR STORY
And shapes the events of it
And hence the ending we think for
OUR STORY doesn’t always take place
Something different
Something Beautiful
Sometimes worst
Also happens
And we have to accept it
Let the ending be written as it happened
We can imagine and write it as a
Brand New ending
Just as we thought it would be
But man, not always it happens
Ad hence let others also
Be a part of OUR STORY
And write their part
In their own hand
And I assure you
They will try to make
YOUR STORY more beautiful
By making their character the Protagonist
And hence the plot becomes
Powerful and twistful
With many MANY
Good characters
And hence the ending
Is more PERFECT than your
Brand New ending..

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P.S. : I have been listening to LOST STARS since today morning(in loop) and got Brand New Ending from there 😉

Always on meds..

Meds

I don’t suffer from ill-health or temperature

I suffer from love

Love that doesn’t see me

Love that doesn’t want to see me

Love that is not felt for me

Love that is non-existent

Love is my disease

And I am the patient

Always injured

Always suffering

Always admitted

Always on meds

Known as friends

Who give me strength

To accept and to forget

This contagious disease..

Mental Indigestion..

Are you ready to die today?

A simple question, which can bring back fears and sorrow to you and also to your near and dear ones. No one is ever ready, I guess.

If you’re ready, then man, you’re at peace with your life and have lived it to the fullest and no matter what you got, more happiness or pain, you have accepted that and made your peace with it. You found your closure.

We are a moving vessel of thoughts, imaginations, hope, trust, promises, sacrifices, love, betrayals, mood-swings, double-crossings and many more. We have either done these things or have been on the receiving end and also the combination of both.

At the end, we gotta understand the natural fact that we are humans. We make mistakes, even blunders and desire for forgiveness. But does our desire meet what we deserve?

Sometimes we are forgiven but mostly we are punished, if not physically then torture or separation or something related. At that moment, we think it’s better to die and be done with all these. But, is it real?

If we die, we won’t feel anything, not the pain or the happiness. There will be no WE. No I. There will be nothing. Not even nothing.
So, if hard days are what you are going through, then talk it out. Share it with your closest of friends. Or better, write it down.

No one needs to know, if you are not okay with that. But, don’t keep it all inside. It creates mess. Chaos. Indigestion.
Stomach indigestion can be cured with some meds. But, mental indigestion can be fatal. It leads to drastic, life-changing decisions, which should be avoided at all cost.

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See how powerful our little brain. The left portion, which controls our right half of the body and the right portion, which controls the left half of the body, all so wonderful and controlling us. For me, it’s like a temple. And if, some mental indigestion is to occur here, then this EVER SO BEAUTIFUL ABODE will be destroyed and you will never be satisfied.

The best way for that to NOT happen is accept the reality and be social. Talk about the problems and see others perspectives. We never know, someone else’s brain might be more beautiful than ours. And, we can learn from it, make our’s even more evolved. Treasure this beauty, this brain, it’s thoughts, this life. It’s your’s. Not mine, not anybody else’s. Make it beautiful inside and it will surely reflect outside.

We won’t get another life(may be I am implying for re-birth, but in that case also, the situations will be different than the present ones), so hold on to things and make it all count. Love, live, smile. Pain will come and go, just as the happiness. But, it all depends for HOW LONG you hold on to that feeling.

If pain comes, hold it, see it, feel it and then let go. So that, when you encounter it again, you can know, “Oh, this Pain! We have crossed path before and the last time was not so good. I will better skip meeting it this time”. See, it becomes so easy.

If happiness comes, hold it, see it, feel it, enjoy it and here, you can KEEP IT. In your heart, it will always be there as your fondest of memory.

Now, if you have found this kind of happiness and calmness, I think you are ready to die(or you won’t feel regret, if death comes and takes you away) but if not, then work towards this feeling.
When you will encounter, no one knows. But, if you think positive, then that moment will never be far.
You deserve to be happy and everyone desires to be happy.
Let’s try to match our desire and deserve to our best potential.

From time to time..

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Want to listen something?
Something, which matters
Not only to you
But also to me
And also to every individual
Then follow the below
No matter whether
You’re reading this on laptop
Or your phones
Just be calm
Stop any music, if you’re playing
Stop any other work
Just for 2 minutes
Give me that
Concentrate
Be still
And think of yourself
Your life
Your happiness
Your pain
Your failures
Your achievements
Let all these
Play in a slideshow
In your mind
Let it roll
Let it be remembered
Let it be there
In your minds
Forever
Remember to cherish
And cherish to remember
Be grateful to everyone
Be happy for everything
Be blessed by all
Spread the smiles
And the realization
That we’re humans
And it’s absolutely okay
To take sometime out
And let the slideshow run
Listen to the silence around you
Listen to the voices inside
Listen to the screams of your heart
Listen to the unhearable..

The perfect suicide..

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She thought of dying

Bringing an end

To all of it

To all the pain

To all the suffering

To all the curses

To all the yellings

To all the taunts

By ending all of her

She thought

She was hated

And disgraced by all

She thought she

Ain’t worth being alive

Because no one

Likes her

And all of a sudden

At the middle of a dark

Night she left

For the beach

Where she will

Surrender her

Hurt soul and body

And be peaceful

Onwards

And she reached there

And could listen

To the waves

Their shouts

Calling her name

Welcoming her

To the new land

Beneath it

Promising not to

Disappoint her

Just like every other person

And she was convinced

To make the journey

To the new dreamland

Leaving everything behind

And slowly

She entered the water

Wet legs

Cool breeze

Feeling of calmness

Dominating her

She releasing her soul

Thanking God for everything

And forgiving the bad

People have done to her

Serene silence

Water level increasing

Knees drowned

Now the waist

And a force took her back

BACK!

She meant to go front

Wanted the waters to

Take her inside

And tell her stories

And introduce her to

Other beautiful people

In that new dreamland

Who are just like her

But it was not what happened

Someone forced her back

On the sand

And when she saw with anger

And was already cursing

The person

Who dared to stop her

She saw that one face

His beautiful face

Filled with tears

And sweat and panting

And the way he hugged her

Brought senses to her

That indeed she was doing a

Mistake

Rather a blunder

And on that beach

They buried their

both their hurt and pain

And went back home

Happily

The guy was never to blame

She knew deep inside her heart

All the other were

But she also realized

She was punishing the guy

Rather than punishing others

And now others don’t

Matter to her

Only his love

Their love

Their life

I swear I tried..

As I see the

Tears from the sky

Fall on the surface

Of the earth

And mostly it

Brings joy to me

But today

I m Drenched and

Hollow and

Gloomy

Because

The past

Hindered with me

As I saw the scars

Again on her face

Her cute little face

Blood dripping from it

Her eyes blood red

She all scared

By not the scars

Because she can lie

But the scars won’t lie

They will scream

About the beatings

About the slaps

About the torture

About the violence

About the victory

Of that fucking SOB

Because she chose to lie

She chose to stay mum

She chose to love him

She chose to forgive him

And by doing this

She chose Death

Not the easy soothing & immediate one

But a more grievous

Day-by-day one

And God help her with

Her slow poison death

And I tried

I swear I tried

To help her

To stop him

And it did stop

But it was just

A matter of days

And the ritual has

Again started

And its more fierce

As if the days off

Are being paid

With interest

And now all I can

Do to save my Angel

My mother

Is cry with her

And hope that

As the rain water

Gets washed into drains

Our tears will somehow

Find there way to peace

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What I see….

What do you think

I see when you find me looking at the mirror?

Grieving soul?

Broken heart?

Pain in eyes?

Forced dimples on cheek?

Frowned brows?

Shrugged shoulders?

Failed composure?

Drenched life?

No !!

That’s not the reality

Because

I see

Smiling soul

Happy heart

Cheerful eyes

Attractive dimples

Lively brows

Capable shoulders

Confident composure

Blissful life

How can I stay sad and weak and in pain

When I know these are temporary and of no gain

Half the battle is won in mind

Before facing the battlefield wind

All I want to see is an evolved me

Today, tomorrow and that’s what I see..

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Making of TOMORROW me..

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Walking with cross hands

Folded hands

All to myself

Not wanting to know the world anymore

Enough of knowing others

Now time to know myself

Because if I know myself

I will know the world

And all the others

Walking super fast

As I m walking alone

Making way for myself

Jumping over the mud pool

Avoiding the daily humdrum traffic

I will stumble and fall

Break my nose

I will walk on wrong paths unknowingly

Just to return back to square one

Then make a mental note

To only follow my heart

And not blindly trust directions

Given by others or the sign boards

I will get dirty

But I will be glad

As I am walking towards

Purity of my soul

I will get tired

I will get aches

I may crawl

Stop for some time

But will resume again

Ah! Its okay

To know myself

Some hard times

Some mud stains won’t hurt

People get lost knowing self

For me its all bearable

Not only stains but also pain

Destination is always the same

TOMORROW ME

Starting point is also the same

YESTERDAY ME

Journey is also the same

TODAY ME

Hurdles will come today only

Neither yesterday nor tomorrow

And the way I get over them

Will play a key role

In the making of

TOMORROW ME

Life has the last laugh !! or does it??

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What is correct?

What is legit?

What is right?

What is acceptable?

What is better?

What is common?

When the past invades your present

What happens?

Does everything comes as a flashback

As if it just happened

Yesterday

No!! Just an hour ago

And now it seems all scattered

Is this what happens?

Or it already seems a distant past

And you can seldom remember

Anything clearly

It is there in your mind

Yes because it happened

In reality with you

But all is vague

And you don’t want to

Rub your hand like on the

Foggy glass pane

And want to see your past

In clarity because

You think that its gone

And let bygones be bygone

And you succeed also

Kudos !!

But till how long, is the question?

You will succumb

Not instantly may be

But eventually

And life will be there

Having the last laugh

As if it HAD you

All down on your knees and drenched

But….

Yes you were down but not buried

And hence you rise

You get someone more lovely

In present, or in near-future

And you get the reason

To smile back at life

And think(not say)

I have Her and I am happy !!

Life didn’t get to have the last laugh

And it never will

Death may have the last laugh

But, till that no matter what

We must have lived our life up to the fullest.