Others and us

Sometimes it feels like
We know others better
Than we know ourselves
And it feels true
And it is true too
In today’s world
We’re bombarded with so much information
We try to apply it all
Our knowledge about others
And we feel pride
That we know and sometimes
We judge others too
Not realizing
That if we would apply the same
On to ourselves
We would have become a more better person
A more understanding person
And this would lead us to more happiness
Because we would know how and what to tune in ourselves
To link to the channel of happiness
Now that we know more about others
We decide frequently
To try to find someone new
To know
To understand
And hence we keep on hoping from person to person
What would be ideal is?
Knowing thyself
Believing in us
And trying to talk
Trying to communicate
And express
And live a life of abundance

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Outside is a myth

These are the times of the virus

People are suffering day in, day out

Oop! Nothing to do with outside

Outside is a myth

It’s all day in, an hour by hour

And as it is all ‘in’ and ‘indoors’

Let’s try to go more ‘into’ ourselves

And this is how we’ll be able to fight this time

This new challenge is to keep ourselves calm and at peace

It cannot be done by focusing our energy on the external stuff

As it is beyond our control

This time around, we’ll have to go within

Learn about our habits and patterns

And thoughts and ideas

And try to accept them

Try to give a different narrative

To this entire external situation

And that is how we can be in peace

We can live in the moment

We can amor fati (love our fate)

We can momento mori (death is inevitable)

And we can stay calm and smiling

Maybe this virus lead us here indirectly

But now as we are here

Let’s try to make the best use of this

And come out with flying colors

And when things become better

We’ll definitely get chance to experience

The external factors again 🙂

P.S.: This week’s song is How to be me by Ren & Chinchilla. I hope you’re taking proper care and trying to stay safe. Prayers and smiles to you all. Ping me, if you want to talk and share your experience. ‘Amor fati‘ and ‘Momento mori‘ are concepts of Stoicism.

Mothers, prayers, and what not

I have seen my mother pray
Pray with full dedication
As if nothing else exists
As if nothing else matters
She prays for everyone
Maybe except for herself
Sometimes she cries
Something has to be bothering her
She doesn’t want to share it with us

Today, I was at a church in Kanyakumari
On my path to self-discovery
Reading The pilgrimage by Paulo Coelho there
And penning down some of my thoughts
I heard some sobs and crying
On looking, I saw a mother
Praying to Jesus
Asking for some fortunate events maybe
While her two kids were sleeping on the floor
Tears running down her cheeks
With a religious book in her hand
With thousands of thoughts in her mind
Of the imminent future
And the testing present

And then she calmed down
Bowed in front of Him
And kissed the kids
Woke them up and off they went

Maybe, my mother cries for the same reason while praying
For her kids, her family
Seldom for herself
And now what makes me cry
Is that my mother cries for others
And so does her son.

Amen!

Date: 22/Dec/2019

Place: Kanyakumari

P.S.: Happy 2020, fellas! 😛 How are you all? Today’s song pick is Khud se by Osho Jain.

Holding on & letting go

In the last few months
I tried to change a habit of mine
I used to hold my blanket in my sleep
Hold till my neck in a grip
And when I used to wake up
I felt something different in my fingers
They felt tired and looked like a claw
In seconds, it would be all good
But one night I decided while sleeping
I won’t do it
I won’t let my body hold the blanket involuntarily
I wanted to practice letting go
Letting go of the blanket
Letting go of the troubles of life
Letting go of the nightmares
Letting go of stuff not meant for me
Just letting go
And it worked
Maybe not like a charm in the beginning
But it worked
And I kind of mastered it
Fast forward and I find myself in the same loop
Of holding on
Is this never going to let go of me?
I don’t think so
And again the process of
Letting go starts
Maybe the old trick might not work
We’ll try something new
But it starts
All I want is my fingers to feel free when I wake up
Will I get there?
Of course, man!
When?
Time will tell
Because all the letting go processes are different
So, good luck for your letting go of stuff
Which we have been holding on maybe forcefully

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P.S.: Today’s song pick is Bad Behaviour by Mabel. Happy weekend!

Happy Independence day!

We all remember the important events of our lives
The start of something new and special
The special days within those special times
And as the general rule of life
Things end and always not so swiftly
Most of the times without closure
So moving on becomes difficult
We try to give ourselves a reason
But still it might not just be the actual reason
Sometimes I wonder how can I know exactly what others thought and meant
And I loop around to reach a conclusion
That I can NEVER know what they thought
Maybe they themselves didn’t know that
Others can be confused too like us
But I have to move on
I have to accept the way things are and get started
I have to break the loop
I have to accept and forgive and understand Maktub
And Maktub it is one fine day
And it all starts to change
I feel like today’s my Independence Day
Good riddance to my holding on
Time to embrace the uncertain future
Try to converse with the Universe
Watch out for omens
And also smile a bit more
Because this is life
Maktub is life
Now is life…

P.S.: Happy November and today’s song pick is Happens to the heart by Leonard Cohen.

The eternal care

I remember every time I come home
I feel something different
Something unique
Something as love
Unequivocal
Seldom via words
Usually by actions
This time around
It was by the same person
Around 4:23 AM
I was awake as I was reading
The fault in our stars
My mom was sleeping beside me
As she moved in her sleep
I switched off the lights
So that her sleep won’t be disturbed
She turned towards me
I couldn’t see whether her eyes were open or close
But she just extended her hand
To feel me
She touched my hand
She touched my chest
My face
She got a sense of my existence
Her heart and soul was convinced
That Darshith’s safe and asleep
She blew a kiss in the air
Muaahhhhh
And she was asleep
I switched on the lights
Continued reading
But before that
I wanted to feel that moment
The love of a mother
The purest form of love
She’s awesome
Asleep yet thinking about the kids
We’re blessed

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P.S.: And I am back in Bangalore from my 1 month’s time at home. It was fun and I didn’t talk to my parents/siblings much this time around but it was a different experience. How are you all? Today’s song pick is The Reason Why by JP Cooper.

Not just yet another blogger

No! She was not just YET ANOTHER BLOGGER. She was my heart and so much close to me. I listen to her talk about her life and share her wisdom with me. She listens to me too 😉

It has been a good roller-coaster ride to know via WordPress and finally, I met her and her family last week. Yes, I met Sri Di. Our lovely Srichandra Mukherjee.

This meeting was an anticipated one which we had talked a lot about. And then when we met, we both couldn’t believe that we were there together.

As discussed over calls numerous times, we ate pizza and sweets and home-made food. We talked a lot and I also met Ruhaani(Sri Di’s daughter) and she’s one of the most talented kids I know. She loves KPop and she dances like a doll. She knows so many English songs and the best thing is she LOVES football and Neymar is her favorite 😉 Yeah and she loves to read novels ❤

We talked a lot and now I miss her when I am back home. I talked to Sri Di and Ruhaani over the phone but it’s not the same. I know for sure that I will be meeting these beautiful people again 😀

Don’t know how to express the great feeling of meeting such awesome people. I will share some pics and until next time.

Before it began
Before it began
book + the marker
The bookmark + The book 😉
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The object + the shadow
delicious
Wow! What a grand food fest 😉
drawings
Ruhaani’s drawings
lollipop
Lollipop & HER
the one
A great time with many more to come ❤

Smiles here & smiles there to y’all 😉

P.S.: I have met 19 known bloggers already and I love meeting new people. When asked what drives me in life, I can say making others smile but to make myself smile and live is to travel and meet new and interesting people. Rest other stuff is for survival but this is for living and feeling alive. Today’s song pick is Royals by Lorde.

 

The struggle to make ends meet

I have seen the struggle
The struggle to feed oneself
The struggle to feed the family
The struggle to make ends meet
I cannot say that I have felt that struggle
Not specifically yet
But the pain is there to see
In the eyes of those who go through the same
The pride requesting them not to beg
But the hunger lowering their heads
And raising their palms for some money
For some help
To keep the hunger at bay
The desperate need of silencing
The bile juice which keeps on churning
Asking you to provide food to process
But life ain’t fair
We ain’t got no food
So, most of the times, we just drink water
With the hope that the next time
It will be some morsel of food
Instead of water going down our throats
This hope keeps us alive
Keeps us kicking
This spirit keeps us going
This pain makes us strong
We need to get out of our shells
And appreciate the people
Who are constantly going through this
Help them
Grow with them
Because not much can be achieved alone
But bigger and better things can be achieved together

P.S.: Today’s song pick is Out of Love by Alessia Cara. Have a grand week ahead.

Lukewarm is no good

Remember that time
When you worked on your idea
Your desire
Your passion
Your happiness
And it felt good
Just thinking about it
That from tomorrow
You’ll start the work
Tomorrow came
But there were other stuff
To take care too
Other chores
Other people
Others
And you gave it a shot
But not your 100%
And it failed
Your passion collapsed
Your dream passed away
It left you behind
Because you were lukewarm
You were not the storm
Or the freezing cold
Or the scorching heat
You were just bleh
And you were left behind
Good things usually
Don’t come to those
Who lack passion
And definitely not to those
Who are lukewarm
You have to be the fire
You have to be the hurricane
Not knowing whether it will work or not
You have to give it all
Trust the process
Trust yourself
Not to say LIFE SUCKS OR I LOST
But to say I DIDN’T LOSE AND GAVE ME CENT PERCENT

P.S.: This week’s song is October by Alessia Cara. I am home and I read Looking for Alaska recently and loved the book. She was a hurricane and hence the above line. How are you all?

The domino effect

I was there
Just existing
Working on myself
Evolving by learning to dance
To read more
To smile openly
And that was it
and you were there
Going through the tension
Through the trauma
Through the challenges
Through the hardships
Trying to face them
Trying to avoid them
Trying to solve them
And whenever possible, fix them
You were giving your best shot
Sometimes questioning, “Why me?”
Crying through the night
Waking up with sore eyes
And worse, sore mood
and ill health
But you were not giving up
But the thoughts and memories always linger
It kept haunting you
You kept dodging them
And so was the battle played
You were eventually tiring
The thought of giving up was creeping in
But you held on
You didn’t doubt yourself
You didn’t question your past decisions
Which led you into this very battle
It was what you chose
And maybe you accept it now too
But, now you got yourself a cheerleader of a sort in me
Someone who can try to encourage you
And try to help you to not give up
Not to give in
Not so soon
Not ever
And you feel confused
That you never asked for a cheerleader
So, why him? Why now?
And I do not have an answer
All I can say that life is such
And everything follows the domino effect
Each and everything in your life
And mine
Have led us to this point
And hence here we are
You fighting your battles
With more ferocity and more calmness
Not only for yourself
But also maybe for me
And also for others who mean the world to you
And hence comes the saying
“United we stand,
Divided we run towards each other to be united.”

P.S.: Today’s song pick is I swear by All-4-one. I used to listen to this song in loop and then forgot all about it and now it is back again in my life and I welcome it with open arms and the memorized humming of the lyrics. How are you all? What are the weekend plans?