Holding on & letting go

In the last few months
I tried to change a habit of mine
I used to hold my blanket in my sleep
Hold till my neck in a grip
And when I used to wake up
I felt something different in my fingers
They felt tired and looked like a claw
In seconds, it would be all good
But one night I decided while sleeping
I won’t do it
I won’t let my body hold the blanket involuntarily
I wanted to practice letting go
Letting go of the blanket
Letting go of the troubles of life
Letting go of the nightmares
Letting go of stuff not meant for me
Just letting go
And it worked
Maybe not like a charm in the beginning
But it worked
And I kind of mastered it
Fast forward and I find myself in the same loop
Of holding on
Is this never going to let go of me?
I don’t think so
And again the process of
Letting go starts
Maybe the old trick might not work
We’ll try something new
But it starts
All I want is my fingers to feel free when I wake up
Will I get there?
Of course, man!
When?
Time will tell
Because all the letting go processes are different
So, good luck for your letting go of stuff
Which we have been holding on maybe forcefully

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P.S.: Today’s song pick is Bad Behaviour by Mabel. Happy weekend!

Quieten the mind

Oh, the thoughts!
Not always the rebellious ones
Sometimes sneaking out of the blue
Slowly dragging their way in our minds
Not letting us get rid of them
It was going all good
Things seemed to be happier
A bit brightening
And boom
The chaos strikes
Helter Skelter
Nothing in order
Nothing in control
Even if we switch off the lights
Cover our heads under the pillow
It JUST won’t stop
The thoughts
The demons
Won’t stop shouting
Won’t stop bugging
Won’t stop whispering
They want it their way
They want to leave an impact
They want to stay in our minds
Because they think we’re weak
We can’t control our minds
And they’re correct
We can’t
Not at that moment
When the chaos sparks
But then comes a time
Of the Phoenix
Because we know ENOUGH IS ENOUGH
And we want out
We want it done
We want the peace
We want the calmness
For that, we’ll do anything and everything
And if it means to stand up
Against our fear and our demons
Then so be it
We do it
Maybe not gracefully
We do it just by the edge
But we get it done
We show them the door
We drag them out of their so-called habitat
And then there’s nothing
There’s no rejoice of the victory
No cheers
There’s the pin-drop silence
The void
And then there’s us
Budding as a new person
A new thought
A new life

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P.S.: Today’s song pick is Be as you are by Mike Posner.

Happy Independence day!

We all remember the important events of our lives
The start of something new and special
The special days within those special times
And as the general rule of life
Things end and always not so swiftly
Most of the times without closure
So moving on becomes difficult
We try to give ourselves a reason
But still it might not just be the actual reason
Sometimes I wonder how can I know exactly what others thought and meant
And I loop around to reach a conclusion
That I can NEVER know what they thought
Maybe they themselves didn’t know that
Others can be confused too like us
But I have to move on
I have to accept the way things are and get started
I have to break the loop
I have to accept and forgive and understand Maktub
And Maktub it is one fine day
And it all starts to change
I feel like today’s my Independence Day
Good riddance to my holding on
Time to embrace the uncertain future
Try to converse with the Universe
Watch out for omens
And also smile a bit more
Because this is life
Maktub is life
Now is life…

P.S.: Happy November and today’s song pick is Happens to the heart by Leonard Cohen.

The eternal care

I remember every time I come home
I feel something different
Something unique
Something as love
Unequivocal
Seldom via words
Usually by actions
This time around
It was by the same person
Around 4:23 AM
I was awake as I was reading
The fault in our stars
My mom was sleeping beside me
As she moved in her sleep
I switched off the lights
So that her sleep won’t be disturbed
She turned towards me
I couldn’t see whether her eyes were open or close
But she just extended her hand
To feel me
She touched my hand
She touched my chest
My face
She got a sense of my existence
Her heart and soul was convinced
That Darshith’s safe and asleep
She blew a kiss in the air
Muaahhhhh
And she was asleep
I switched on the lights
Continued reading
But before that
I wanted to feel that moment
The love of a mother
The purest form of love
She’s awesome
Asleep yet thinking about the kids
We’re blessed

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P.S.: And I am back in Bangalore from my 1 month’s time at home. It was fun and I didn’t talk to my parents/siblings much this time around but it was a different experience. How are you all? Today’s song pick is The Reason Why by JP Cooper.

Not just yet another blogger

No! She was not just YET ANOTHER BLOGGER. She was my heart and so much close to me. I listen to her talk about her life and share her wisdom with me. She listens to me too 😉

It has been a good roller-coaster ride to know via WordPress and finally, I met her and her family last week. Yes, I met Sri Di. Our lovely Srichandra Mukherjee.

This meeting was an anticipated one which we had talked a lot about. And then when we met, we both couldn’t believe that we were there together.

As discussed over calls numerous times, we ate pizza and sweets and home-made food. We talked a lot and I also met Ruhaani(Sri Di’s daughter) and she’s one of the most talented kids I know. She loves KPop and she dances like a doll. She knows so many English songs and the best thing is she LOVES football and Neymar is her favorite 😉 Yeah and she loves to read novels ❤

We talked a lot and now I miss her when I am back home. I talked to Sri Di and Ruhaani over the phone but it’s not the same. I know for sure that I will be meeting these beautiful people again 😀

Don’t know how to express the great feeling of meeting such awesome people. I will share some pics and until next time.

Before it began
Before it began
book + the marker
The bookmark + The book 😉
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The object + the shadow
delicious
Wow! What a grand food fest 😉
drawings
Ruhaani’s drawings
lollipop
Lollipop & HER
the one
A great time with many more to come ❤

Smiles here & smiles there to y’all 😉

P.S.: I have met 19 known bloggers already and I love meeting new people. When asked what drives me in life, I can say making others smile but to make myself smile and live is to travel and meet new and interesting people. Rest other stuff is for survival but this is for living and feeling alive. Today’s song pick is Royals by Lorde.

 

The struggle to make ends meet

I have seen the struggle
The struggle to feed oneself
The struggle to feed the family
The struggle to make ends meet
I cannot say that I have felt that struggle
Not specifically yet
But the pain is there to see
In the eyes of those who go through the same
The pride requesting them not to beg
But the hunger lowering their heads
And raising their palms for some money
For some help
To keep the hunger at bay
The desperate need of silencing
The bile juice which keeps on churning
Asking you to provide food to process
But life ain’t fair
We ain’t got no food
So, most of the times, we just drink water
With the hope that the next time
It will be some morsel of food
Instead of water going down our throats
This hope keeps us alive
Keeps us kicking
This spirit keeps us going
This pain makes us strong
We need to get out of our shells
And appreciate the people
Who are constantly going through this
Help them
Grow with them
Because not much can be achieved alone
But bigger and better things can be achieved together

P.S.: Today’s song pick is Out of Love by Alessia Cara. Have a grand week ahead.

Lukewarm is no good

Remember that time
When you worked on your idea
Your desire
Your passion
Your happiness
And it felt good
Just thinking about it
That from tomorrow
You’ll start the work
Tomorrow came
But there were other stuff
To take care too
Other chores
Other people
Others
And you gave it a shot
But not your 100%
And it failed
Your passion collapsed
Your dream passed away
It left you behind
Because you were lukewarm
You were not the storm
Or the freezing cold
Or the scorching heat
You were just bleh
And you were left behind
Good things usually
Don’t come to those
Who lack passion
And definitely not to those
Who are lukewarm
You have to be the fire
You have to be the hurricane
Not knowing whether it will work or not
You have to give it all
Trust the process
Trust yourself
Not to say LIFE SUCKS OR I LOST
But to say I DIDN’T LOSE AND GAVE ME CENT PERCENT

P.S.: This week’s song is October by Alessia Cara. I am home and I read Looking for Alaska recently and loved the book. She was a hurricane and hence the above line. How are you all?