The eternal care

I remember every time I come home
I feel something different
Something unique
Something as love
Unequivocal
Seldom via words
Usually by actions
This time around
It was by the same person
Around 4:23 AM
I was awake as I was reading
The fault in our stars
My mom was sleeping beside me
As she moved in her sleep
I switched off the lights
So that her sleep won’t be disturbed
She turned towards me
I couldn’t see whether her eyes were open or close
But she just extended her hand
To feel me
She touched my hand
She touched my chest
My face
She got a sense of my existence
Her heart and soul was convinced
That Darshith’s safe and asleep
She blew a kiss in the air
Muaahhhhh
And she was asleep
I switched on the lights
Continued reading
But before that
I wanted to feel that moment
The love of a mother
The purest form of love
She’s awesome
Asleep yet thinking about the kids
We’re blessed

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Credits: Getty Images/iStockphoto

P.S.: And I am back in Bangalore from my 1 month’s time at home. It was fun and I didn’t talk to my parents/siblings much this time around but it was a different experience. How are you all? Today’s song pick is The Reason Why by JP Cooper.

Was it love or one-night stand ?!!

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Was it love?

Or a longer version of

One-night stand?

We knew each other

And don’t misunderstand

It for a deep relationship

It was all hi, hello, and bbye

Added with sex

And then again vanish

From each other’s life

All to meet again

For moments of pleasure

Or satisfaction or some change

Just to be puff again

And that was satisfying

To me and to her also

Or that’s what she said

I didn’t try to dig deep

Into what she actually felt

Because that would leave me

All vulnerable and alone and beatable

And just a hint of the breeze

Will be my downfall

So to avoid my downfall

I played with her

Or again was it me being played?

Every moment of separation was chaos

And seldom we thought about each other

Maybe mostly when we were in the

Arms of our better halves

But we missed & imagined each other

During that moment of pleasure

When the toes are all curled

Lips are all wet

Fingers on the back of the skin

Of the other

Just hoping to open eyes

To the familiar face of her

Smiling back & wanting me more

And it was always my better half there

Whom I loved no doubt

But definitely

Less than her

And after the act

I was always happy

With my better half but

Then why do I miss her during the act?

I have been pondering on that

Since we were apart and will

Keep on pondering till

My heart & soul & body are apart

What is love and what is One-night stand?

Ask me and all you will get

Is silence !!

P.S.: This was a draft since more than 2 years and I do not know how twisted my mind was or it still is 😀 Hope you enjoyed the chaotic taste of love and yeah, have a great weekend! And as September is on the verge of ending, this post’s song is Meant to be by Bebe Rexha. And, remember my YouTube channel, Darshith Badiyani, please do the honors 😀

One of the many mothers who cry

Today was the last of the 25 days I spent at home
Because of my father’s health
And I had to leave 12 hours early to catch my flight
Because I had to collect some hospital documents
And it is tragic that you can’t spend extra time with your mother
We were making thepla together this morning
So that I can eat them at the airport whenever hungry
And the fan of the kitchen was not switched on
I saw a drop of sweat dancing on the tip of my mother’s nose
And I told her to switch on the fan
And then I realized that she had more tears than sweat on her face
And her eyes were all red
And she was trying to hold on to her tears
And I felt like the stupidest son ever
But this is how goodbyes are
And then we all have to part ways
Sooner or later

I wish I could make it better and easier for her and others, but, sadly I cannot.

Click to know the recipe to make theplas.

And a video why all mothers are the best — Leaving Home

And to know why I am awesome, watch and subscribe to my YouTube channel, Darshith Badiyani

P.S.: Copyrights to http://www.shuttershock.com for the featured image. Rest all copyrights are mine 😉 How are you? I never missed writing because I just did not publish but wrote some good ideas down. Will post them. Song recommendation in the next post 😀

 

Because of someone like me.

Love is something which is close to my heart

It is also close to your heart

It is a universal feeling

Felt by all

Loved by all

Missed by all

Adored by all

But then, there are the lucky ones

Who get to live their whole lives

With the love of their life

Oh! So beautiful!

What a great sight to see them together always

I feel jealous

I feel guilty for not having an ever-lasting love

I feel guilty for letting the chance go by

I feel dreadful for knowingly saying  goodbye

Because I know I won’t find someone like you

EVER!

But I had to be selfish

I had to think about me first

Because I also won’t find someone like me too!

P.S.: How is this free-verse poem? Please do let me know. Have you ever been in such a situation when you had to prioritize yourself before your love? How did you cope with this? Happy last 2 days of February ❤

Let there be everything

Yo!

In this beautiful month of September

Let there be work

Let there be play

Let there be smiles

Let there be satisfaction

Let there be humor

Let there be gifts

Let there be music

Let there be books

Let there be laughter

Let there be hugs

Let there be travel

Let there be festive

Let there be silence

Let there be ignorance

Let there be judgment

Let there be anger

Let there be sleep

Let there be rest

Let there be excitement

Let there be life

Let there be you

Let there be me

Let there be us ❤

P.S.: This is for each individual out there who lives in routine facing some of all these things. Let there be love. I am becoming a fan of this song of Bruno Mars named That’s what I like.  Feel free to check out my motivational/travel videos @ Darshith Badiyani.

 

Be brave, be selfish, be you!

Yo!
Me!
I am me!
Meet me!
Greet me!
I am a speck of dust
Yet, I am important
You know why?
Because I am alive
Because I exist
I breathe
I laugh
I smile
I cry
I express
I feel
It’s all important
For me because
That’s what makes me who I am
And I am awesome!
Got any doubts?
Please, don’t ask!
Do I care?
Yeah, damn, I don’t!
I love vulgar words
I love to express myself
I love to show who I am actually
I care for you
I like and love you
But you’re never a priority
Because my priority is me
It was difficult to digest it
Learn it
And, thankfully, I did!
I am everything, I know it!
I am grateful for all the things
The sun, the sky, the moon,
the flowers, people, family,
smiles here and smiles there,
hugs, stolen kisses, winks
All the things
But, all of those stop existing
If I stop to exist
If I don’t take care of myself
If I am not my own priority
I am grateful for these selfish thoughts
It has made me happy
It has given me time to invest on things I love
I am happy to be selfish if that makes me happy
Because smiles here, on my face, are important
So are yours, but first,
smiles here and then smiles there
If it is smiles there first,
then for you, it is too,
smiles here and smiles there,
So always the first person,
I, me, myself
I am grateful for such happy times

Be brave, be selfish, be you!

 

Last weekend I went on a #soloTrek to Shivagange and I loved it. You can tell I am selfish. The hell I care. I love to spend time with myself. If you don’t love/like to be alone, trust me, you’re boring. Start making your life an adventure. Do things you fear. I feared to go on a solo trek, I did it. I conquered it. I was 2640.3 feet above the ground, bare foot, scared, but moving forward. I have shared pics and videos of the place. Feel free to go to the place, if you’re near by Bangalore.

P.S.: One of the new songs which I like to listen to is What lovers do by Maroon5.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Woah! What a weekend!

Once in a while, we should have time for ourselves or in my sister’s words, “pamper yourself.” I did exactly the same by going to Cubbon park alone and read 100+ pages of “The Count of Monte Cristo”. I stress on 100+ pages because I was able to do that after so many months and years. It’s an achievement for me. I also watched the long awaited movie Dead poets society and it was so good. CARPE DIEM is something which I will also have to ingrain in my character. Such a touching movie and on top of that I also watched

I also watched the long awaited movie “Dead poets society” and it was so good. CARPE DIEM is something which I will also have to ingrain in my character. Such a touching movie and on top of that I also watched “Kaabil” with my roommates. It definitely was a great weekend. But hey! Saturday is today and all those things were done by me on Thursday and Friday. You ask didn’t I have

But hey! Today is Saturday and all those things were done by me on Thursday and Friday. You ask didn’t I have office? I had but I took leave, just like that, as ‘me-time’ because it is what life is all about.

You know what my resolution of 2015 was? It was to spend 1 sleepless night per month and I successfully achieved it. But with passage of time, we change, we evolve. Similarly, now I am trying to sleep early and wake up early and sleep proper. I am on track for that but this weekend, I slept late and woke early and I was happy because of the old times sake. I was also able to be the old Darshith I used to be.

 

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I am loving my ‘me-time’ and now I am looking forward to making more videos and read more books and watch more movies. Hope you’re also having a perfect weekend! What’s the definition of a perfect weekend for you? Let me know so that I can also do some of the exciting stuff just like you.

P.S.: Check out my latest video and feel free to share your views. I am in love with Ed Sheeran’s songs Castle on the Hill & Shape of you! ❤

 

 

 

I am so happy

Presently I am reading The Metamorphosis by Franz Kafka. It’s a great book and I am liking it till now. Just some 40 add pages are remaining (total pages are 100) 😀

I took the bus from office to home in the evening today. I took out the book from my bag to read. I saw the bus conductor approaching, I kept the book aside, took out my wallet. What happened next was astonishing for me.

The conductor came to me and instead of taking money from me, took the book and started reading. I was stunned. You ask why? Because in India, there are very less literate people who would opt for such a profession and he was totally engrossed in the book.

He went to collect money from other passengers and again came and sat beside me reading the book. I was so happy seeing him reading the book.

I wish he could read more and have a good life just as he’s imagined for himself. He is B.A. pass (Bachelor of Arts) and due to some family issues he chose this. I gave him the book and we shook hands and at the end of my trip, we both were happy souls ❤

P.S.: Ed Sheeran’s Shape of you is my new favorite 😀 I secretly took a pic of the guy reading. Hope this is good.16144932_1184966048223110_1196503601_o

I am happy that I witnessed it..

It’s so pure. The love of grandparents for the grandchildren.

Today morning, I was in a bus going to work, as regular weekdays. I was super sleepy(early morning feeling) and then I saw a kid looking at the line of vehicles at a traffic standing at the side walk. She was hardly 2 years old and probably try it understand, ‘Why so many buses?’, ‘ Why the rush?’, ‘Why the traffic?’, and what I loved the most, was her grandpa’s reaction to it.

He was a white bearded man standing there at the side walk with her, holding her hand. In fact the girl was holding the grandpa’s index finger. All the while, the grandpa was standing still and letting her feel things and analyse her thoughts. The grandpa was not rushing the kid to walk or distract her train of thoughts. On the other hand, the kid was gladly absorbing life and then decided to walk and unknowingly initiated the walk and off they went both.

What a sight it was to see the patient grandpa giving the power of present to her grandchild and the way she bossed the moment. Loved it.

Have you ever felt something so unique that brought a smile to your face and opened up a new level of love and bonding in your life?

Grandfather and granddaughter

Parent-child bonding

When a child is born, everybody loves her. The mother loves her the most.

I am considering, she’s a girl. You can think of her as a boy too. But, there’s a reason why I chose the child to be a girl. The parents carry her in their arms. Shows her the world. Gives her candies and all the love. They think she is learning by seeing the world and will remember what all she sees in her childhood.

But, she seldom remembers because she was a kid after all. The parents were doing all this so that when she grows up and leaves them alone in search of a job or pursue studies or get married, the parents will remember that they did such and such things for her. They will have tears in their eyes and unending love for their child. She will be unaware of all this. She didn’t remember things when she was a kid and she won’t be able to know when she grows up because she won’t be there with them.

But then, this is how it is. A child is born, she’s adored, she grows up, she moves out, parents live with memories. So, the incident when the parents are holding the kid in their arms and showing the moon and the stars and the vehicles on the roads, at that moment, all they want is to see that FANTASTIC smile on the kid’s face. Seldom they realize that those memories will stay with them longer than their kids.

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And when the kids are all grown and independent(almost), parents hide their same emotional side fearing that the kids won’t like it and the kids hide because they think their parents won’t like(or sometimes ego issues like WHY SHALL I SAY FIRST?) and just like that one of the awesome relation on Earth is killed.

Stop reading this blog! STOP! Go, call your parent and talk to them, tell them how much you love them, how much you miss them. It’s now! Then come and like/comment here 😉

This post is inspired from the below Quora post –

Q : What is the deepest conversation you’ve ever had with someone?

A : When I was living in a hostel, my mom used to call me daily and we used to have this same 2 minute conversation.

Mom: Beta! How are you?

Me: I’m good.

Mom: Everything’s fine there?

Me: Yes.

Mom: You had your Dinner?

Me: Yes, Mom!

Mom: Anything else?

Me: No! Now, I’ve to go. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.

Mom: Good Night!

Me: Good Night!

Short conversation, right? Din’t find anything deep in it, did you? I don’t think most of you would have. But this is what she always meant.

Mom: Beta! How are you?

(I know you must be bored of this question by now, but me and your dad are always worried about you. Just listening to your voice everyday is an assurance for us)

Me: I’m good.

(It’s not easy. Its not exactly like home, but I’m managing somehow. I have my own ups and downs but don’t want to bother you and dad with this stuff)

Mom: Everything’s fine there?

(I know you’ll say yes, but your voice betrays you. I can feel you’re not okay. Something’s bothering you, but I also know that you won’t reveal unless you want to. And If I press it, you might get agitated. We just hope you’ll let us know. We’re always there for you)

Me: Yes, Mom!

(You might have sensed it already, but you know I can’t open up. I hope you don’t force it. I’ll handle it myself)

Mom: You had your Dinner?

(Another stupid question, right? But you don’t realize that even a small stupid detail about you is important for me. I hope you actually ate and won’t just say yes so that I feel good. I know you don’t like your mess food)

Me: Yes, Mom!

(Mess food sucks. I really miss home food. I am tired of eating mess food as well as outside food. Anyways, mess is already closed. I’ll go to canteen today again)

Mom: Anything else?

(Tell me if I can help you out, or atleast make you feel better by listening to you. I’m confident that you’re capable enough to handle any situation, but this is the least I can do for you)

Me: No! Now, I’ve to go. I’ll talk to you tomorrow.

(I wish i could tell you. But I need to take care of this myself.

Mom: Good Night!

(I love you beta)

Me: Good Night!

(Love you too, Mom)

Love your parents. Love anyone and everyone. Love without any reason. Love is powerful. So, love yourself first. Love is unequivocal. But still, feel and smile.

P.S.: Yeah! It was powerful. To make you feel better, go listen to Crawling back to you of Backstreet boys! Or, you can go ahead and check this video as a solo-traveler 😉